KYAA~~~~~~!!!!!

OhMaGD!!!!!

is this really happening to me???i mean...seriously????kyaaa!!!!!!!

u don't know how happy i am when i check my twitter laz nite.actually i forgot that i twit to chin earlier n i didn't really expect him to reply my twit,but he really did.

HAHAHAHAHAHA...........*overjoy*

dayum....tat is y i love u more n more.....*mianhae hubby*......

maybe it's nothing for sum people,but for me......*speechless*

i stomp my feet endlessly when i read it.....wo hen gao xing!!!!!!!

Mr.Chin Chinawut Indacusin

BACK OFF LADIES COZ HE'S MINE!!!!

MUAHAHAHAHAAH...........

i think i have found myself a new hubby,no,i'm not divorcing with my Choihubby....it's just tat i need sum1 to love me when he's not there and tat lucky man is Mr.Chin!!!*clap*

dayum.......just look at how hawt he is...i mean he doesn't look like a thai at all,he looks more like a chinese.well,his mom is france n his dad is thai...+sophie(his sister)is soooooo pretty,really envy her...

chin n his momma..

siblings love...

1st kami kenal chin is thru chinese drama....18 sumtg la tajuk dia...bez gak cite tu,tp time tu dia mang agak muda la....so amek port sgt la...then time kami keje kat speedy br kami taw yg he's thai coz i saw his cd in thai artist rack,so i ask my friend:

me:"ah ying,wei shen me chin de cd you zai thai guo artist d di fang?"(ah ying,y is chin cd in thai artist rack?)

ah ying:"owh,ta shi thai guo ren ma..wei shen me?ni yi wei ta she taiwan lai de ah?mei you la..."(owh,tat becoz he's a thai,why?u thought he's a taiwanese ah?no la..)

0__0....really??he doesn't looks like a thai at all.....dayum he's hawt...so d rest are history...how old is he?he's 21 y.o....*sigh*....budak muda lagi....xkisah la...owh,i just realize,both my hubby's name start with d letter C=Choi Seunghyun,Chin Chinawut Indacusin...^_^...

I'M SO HAPPY!!!!!!!!BABY AH,....CHAN RAK TURR!!!!!!

my intelligence boy..

can i be ur classmate n sit beside u..lol

ommo,baby.how did u found me here??

he's a huge fan of Lilo&Stitch...nadoo~~~~

my perfect chin~~ *_*...

PUT UR HANDS UP!!!

hm...tetiba rasa cam update blog plak...ni sume miss yoyo_icecube pny psl la..haha....JK dear..

lets see....what happen in my life recently..

1.family drama yg xreti2 bhs nk abis...*sigh*....since i'm in premier school until now,the drama keeps on going on n on...arghh....pegi brambus ngan sume tu...dh mls nk pike...huh.

2.i am sooooooooo into thai pop right now.dulu ad gak minat,but i just kenal blackjack only,then after pegi hatyai with my soul nyah...wah.....br kenal ngan k-otic,c-quint,FFK,Chin Chinawut(hawt stuff!!!!)..sape kata lagu thai xbez???bez taw..music knows no boundaries la..xkesah la dia ckp bhs tamil ke,thai ke,burma ke,klu lagu tu bez...mang bez gak..

3.makin nk abis sem ni,cam bese la...KONVO TIME!!tp agk sdey gak coz this is my laz convo.TT^TT...pas ni dh xdpt nk rs camni dah...farewell party choir smlm mang besh yg t'amat.oltho xramai yg dtng,but still meriah...LUV U GUYS~~!!

4.JAY PARK IS COMING TO MALAYSIA!!!!!!AND IT IS CONFIRM!!!!!wah......korg xtaw btapa happy nya kami....he's like d 2nd after Big Bang tat is important to me.tp yg xbesh nye,VVIP nye tix quiet bissabda..rm600...hm...nex sem dh la bnyk guna duit,ngan baksis nya.itu nye,ini nye...adoyai...tgk la normal tix pny price bape....by hook or by crook,i still wanna go..

5.last week scr rasmi nya sy sdh break ngan my bf...hm...pyh la couple ngan bdk muda neh,otak dorg len sbnr nya ngan kita...tp xpe la,papehal,we're still friends.^_^

tu je la kot....i'll explain others later.......lalolelilu~~~~~~

F**K OFF!!!!

aarrrrggrhh............F*CK OFF!!!!!
gah......i'm so fedup wit u guys....xabis2 mslh nya....yg ko nk ngamok2 ap hal???menopos ke???arrfgghhh....klu la ad ubat kat dunia for a happy family,mang dh lama kami beli,but d probs is xde,tu yg cam ***** jek family ak neh.....sorg prangai camni,sorg lg prangai camni...bole gile ak jd nye tawx??drama xabi2....aduh....juz stop it la,sjk dr kami skola mngh,until now,xabis2 nk b'drama....sinetron pn reti nk brenti...
what do you mean by "jgn jd macam lalang?kejap sn,kejap sini?"....FYI,i have my own oppinion,i'll live my life the way i want it.kami xnk lbey kn mn2 pihak coz 4 me,2-2 blah ad betul n salah nya.klu ko nk kami fully stay on ur side juz because korg sblh ibu,i'm so sorry i can't.why???sebab korg memang dh taw yg kami xbley nk syng ibu.don't ask me why,i just can.bkn nya kami xcuba,i had try,but still i can't....so jgn nk paksa kami.n the other side plak,klu korg nk kami stay with u guys just because u guys r d elders,i'm so sorry,i can't either...why??sbb korg pn ad gak slh nya....ap dia??buka minda,pike2 sndr...korg taw x,1 of d reason nape family ni fall apart is because of fikiran sempit korg....i'm not asking u guys to be liberal,but tolg la open sket minda korg tu....
mang kami xbley nk ckp sume ni dpn korg,y?coz kami still ad rasa hormat seorang adik t'hadap abg2 n kakak2 dia....tapi kami pn xbole nk simpan je dlm hati...damn i wish kami dh fly oversea to further my study,dh xsggp nk blakon dlm drama yg ntah taun bila nk abis...
@*&$%V@*B%HT^*&G^&@$%X#%V()#@&%)($&@............

HATE YOU!!!!

I am fvking hate my family rite now,yeah,u heard me,I HATE 'EM ALL!!!!!!masing2 dgn kpala otak masing2,sorg prangai camni,sorg lagi prangai camni.bila b'gaduh,mula la family b'pecah.yg jadi mangsanya kitorang yg kecik2 ni.sblh pihak suruh pegi belah dia,sblh pihak lagi ckp ikut dorg.let me tell you something okay,I'M NOT IN ANY SIDE.not even the "good" side or the "bad" side.coz 2-2 belah pihak ad pro n contra dorg masing2.i might tell you that i'm in your side,but i'm so sorry,i have to lie.i don't even think that i own a family right now.i've been crying deep in my heart for so long.i just don't wanna tell you guys about it.i lost my family the moment you guys fought with each other.i love all of you and i want my family back,why can't you guys just be honest with each other.

i have a lots of good and sweet memories with all of you.i still remember how angah will play with my hair back when i was little,she'll make all kinds of hairdo for me,and i can say it's the prettiest hairdo in the world.Mat,i still remember the way he hold me when i was crying because daddy won't let me follow him.he comfort me and tell me that it's okay,he's gonna be there and he'll take care of me until daddy come back.he also the one that comfort me the day daddy pass away,telling them he'll be there for me.andak,for me you are the sweetest big brother.you still call me adik even i'm so big right now.whenever you saw me walking home alone,you'll give me a ride with your green bicycle and carry my big+heavy bag on your back.awang,whenever you feel uncomfortable or you feel dizzy,you will always ask me to give you a massage and thanks me when you feel a little better.awin.do you know that i envy you so much back then,because you are so good,you're good in sport,in academic and your pretty too,how i wish i can be like you when i grow up.amar,we have a great memories when we were small.we will play together,do everything together,play in the school pool,and let me tell you something,whenever your drawing were post on the school board,i am so damn proud of you and will tell my friend that this is my brother's drawing.for aiman n ain,well,there's no word than can describe how much i love you guys.i may be harsh sometimes,it's not that i hate you guys,just that i want you guys to be the best and better than me.i don't want you guys to follow my foot step coz i can say that i'm the worse in the family,i can't get into SMKA until i'm in form6,not like other siblings,they are way clever than me,they get into the school after they finish their primary school.n i'm not good in academic,sports anything.i promise you guys that i'll do anything for you even if it cost me my life.

mom,i can tell you that i do have some good memories of you.i still remember how you will bring back guava everytime you go to the market when you know that i love to eat it.you throw me the biggest n the best birthday party in my life when i was 6,you made this delicious cakes,buy a lot of chocolate and invite all my friends.there's much more,but i can't recall any of it because of all the hates that i have in me.i'm sorry mom,i'm really sorry.i've try my best to open up my heart try to love you,but i just can't,it's hard,it feels like if i start to love you and put you inside my heart,you will go away,just like daddy.let me tell you something,i can't love anybody right now because i'm afraid that they'll leave me too.daddy's memories just keep mingling inside of me.i think about him every freaking day.i know you guys feels the same too.we all miss him,and i miss him more because i spend have of my life with,i learn only to love him,so when he's gone,i don't think i belong in this world anymore,it's like god had taken my heart with him.i can't set my mind straight until now.everything is just like a dream to me.everytime i go to sleep,i wish that he'll be there,telling me that it's okay for me to sleep because the angles will be here all night long to take care of me and no monster can come near me.and when i wake up,he'll be there,infront of me.smiling at me and kiss me in the forehead just like he use to do. i gave up eating chocolate because that's the most important things that remind me of him,i went to hatyai,to recall all the memories with daddy.i can still see how stiff we are we he took the picture.i miss his big batik sweater even if i kinda hate it,heh,it's too big for me.

guys,i don't know whether i should say this or not.all of you have a problem with each other.everyone is a grown up here,just think about it.1st thing 1st,never ever judge a book by it's cover.angah,even if awin didn't wear her headgear,that doesn't mean that she's bad.she still takes a good care of me.although sometimes she'll piss me off,but still,it doesn't change the fact that she is always concern about me.try to open your heart to except here,she might be different compare to others,but she have her own way to show her love.awin,i don't know what happen to your past with angah,but what i can say is,she is not as bad as you think she is.she always think about our family since she's the oldest.she always wanted the best.she try to keep the pace between our family and daddy's.losing daddy doesn't mean that we are no longer apart of them.

i know that we have a family meeting everytime,but i just didn't feel it because we're not really telling others on how much we feels.i'm not saying that i love the family meeting because i totally hate it,but i can say that it's really a good thing for us.just don't do it every year,can ah?hehe..

i miss the old times,the time where all of us will sit together and enjoy our meal,the time when we will surround dad and mom,and ask them to tell the story when we're still a kid.everything is nothing now.i can't feel the love no more.i can say that i'm all alone right now.all that i have with me is just memories,memories that will never come back again.never.

UNTIL WHENEVER-BIG BANG

I avoid the warm gaze watching me (i keep cry)
You know my heart, will you wait? (i keep lie)

oh baby don’t cry lady (oh)
Don’t forget that promise of ours (oh)
I’ll take care of you until whenever
No matter how sad [I am] (I can only laugh)
Even though I’m tired and hurt (I can only endure)
Even if you leave (I can’t catch you)
Even still, with your trust we can only be forever

The day when the sunlight was warm, the day when we first met
I, who looked like a fool drenched in sweat,
still remember, “You shine more than anyone else,”
said this one girl as she picked me up

From that moment on, 1 year, 2 year, time [went by] steadily
All the memories we experienced together [went by in] a blink of an eye
In that place, between you and I,
blocking and standing, a wall full of hypocrisy (ah)

Although I like you, I can’t approach you
When I see your pure eyes, I am afraid
I’m scared the world will snatch you away
I ask for that beautiful smile not to change you are so
beautiful girl you are more valuable than those gems
A wound that will embrace the young and delicate you
I don’t want to hurt your pure heart
Pray, shut your eyes and ears, I’m crazy over you

oh baby don’t cry lady (oh)
Don’t forget that promise of ours (oh)
I’ll take care of you until whenever
No matter how sad [I am] (I can only laugh)
Even though I’m tired and hurt (I can only endure)
Even if you leave (I can’t catch you)
Even still, with your trust we can only be forever

Whenever, wherever we were together
We were so happy, it was our time [*T/N: "Time" can also be "world" or "life"]
So we ran, on the dangerous road and fields
I, who even after falling, stood up again at the thought of you

Run looking only forward, I’ll watch your back
Spread your wings, I’ll block the wind
you are the one in my life like an undying star
[*T/N: This line is special to us VIP because it is a direct quotation of what GD in his Daesang Award speech: "We will try hard to become undying stars."]

Who knew a wrong mistake would turn out like this
Who knew you, who I lean on, would hurt this much
Only an ocean of sadness [and] dark loneliness
I can only cry like a little kid lost in the black darkness

baby girl don’t leave
(Now I can’t be without you, please don’t leave)
baby girl don’t lose your spirit
(I’ll give you a bigger trust, please don’t cry anymore)

oh baby don’t cry lady (oh)
Don’t forget that promise of ours (oh)
I’ll take care of you until whenever
No matter how sad [I am] (I can only laugh)
Even though I’m tired and hurt (I can only endure)
Even if you leave (I can’t catch you)
Even still, with your trust we can only be forever

Like your friend
Like our promise
I see only you
I avoid the warm gaze watching me
You know my heart, will you wait?

VIP

(the song explain everything,well,i can't describe my love towards big bang,but what i can say is,i'll be with u guys till d end of time,tat's my promise....)

RAYA IS OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!

finally...b'akhir jugak penderitaan yg t'paksa zahir n batin kami ni tanggung..aduyai...x,actlly mslh ni bkn nya bsr pn(for some people la)but for me,mslh ni mang BESAR sgt2...mslh nya is....kami ni dh xlm xblk kg,so taun ni raya kn blk kg...disitulah b'mula nya problem kami.sbb klu nk blk kg,i gotta change 100%..mang klu korg tgk kami kat kg n d real me,mang korg rs nk sepak 100 kali la.yelah,kena pakai tudung everytime kuar bilik,xbley pki my regular t-shirt,ckp kn sopan santun...arrggghhh.......ssoooooo fake u know!!!!!aduh...mjr la semua tu dh b'akhir,dorg ajk blk raya haji,wow...trus kami ckp kami ad exam,xbley blk..xsggp seyh...

tp xla spnjg raya ni kami t'siksa,ad gak cite bez..hehe....cam bese la,dh 2 bln xjmp,time cuti camni la klu nk kuar dating pn..huhu...ala,bkn g mn pn,tgk wyng,jln2..bnd bese jek,yg agak bez tuh dpt present,dia bg earing ngan hair clip,tp yg xbez nya,got yellow rose on it,*sigh*,tp kami terima jek...tnx babe..^_^...see u this december...wah...lm lagi seyh...