To My Princess

this post i dedicated to my one and only princess in my whole life. the princess that bring tears,laughter,stress and even love in my empty heart.it is no other than my baby girl,

INTAN NURUL 'AIN.

princess actually got a lot of nicknames, gem,adik,sayang..for me,i prefer to call her sayang..meaning i will always love her (although there are sometimes where i feels like pinching her because she is sooooo naughty..*sigh*) but still, my love to her is endless.

let me tell you guys a little story about princess. actually her life starts not as good as other kids out there. she was born in the year 1998,thats mean she is 10 years gap from me.she was born pre-mature where she is just 8 months by the time she was born and FYI, princess were born inside daddy's car where they are on the way from UIA to Terengganu (at that time my family still stays in terengganu).

she is as big as a cucumber by that time (seriously small), she doesn't cry,open her eyes or even move. she just lay there and luckily she can breath. so Pn.Aznah had to take care of her and stay at the hospital for almost 2 years if im not mistaken. she had been diagnosed with as many disease as she can, some doctors said that she had a problem with her backbone, then the other said that she got HIV *nonsense*..some even said that princess cannot live any longer.

Pn.Aznah is 1 strong woman, no matter what the doctor told her, she will always be there beside princess because she has a faith that princes will be as normal as other kids out there. after a long staying at the hospital, princess finally get released by them when they can't find anymore strange disease.

back at home, princess still laying there on her matters and slowly she can open here eyes but still can't talk or even walk. she got a very big doll eyes when she is just a baby..

my parents brought her to a special massage and give her some therapy and slowly she can walk and talk.but still, princess got diagnose with a slow learner syndrome thats mean although her real age is 13 this year, her mind is still like a 9 years old kid.

but im very thankful to all of it. no matter how my baby girl is,i will still love her for the rest of my life because to me,she is prefect.

lastly,to my baby girl, if you ever read this post, achik wanted to tell you that i love you so much.mmmmuuuaaaahhhh~~~!!!

You & I

argghhh...i dunno where to begin..toooooo maaannnyyyy things happen dlm ms sbulan neh.hm..i think i shud buat in parts..

okay,1st thing that i'm gonna stated in this entry is....er....i kinda like my "new" mom.how do i say this ek....some of you guys already knew that i'm not in a very good relation with my mom.so,dlm ms sebulan ni (i mean before i got this internet again),i spend most of my times watching television downstair and in the same time kena la ngadap muka Pn.Aznah 24/7.serious shit kami cakap,yang kami gila xtahan...how to say ek..em....mang 24/7 moody jek n suka buat prangai...(i noe i sound childish)....

tapi kan...lama2 kami dapat blaja sumtg yg kami xpenah blaja slama ni.turn out to be,rupa2 nya perangai Pn.Aznah ni lbey kurang cam prangai kami jek+she's very open minded.hari tu amoi tunjuk kat dia my pedicure set n short,kami igt kan dia nak marah,skali dia wat muka slamba jek..ek.....Pn.Aznah xngamuk ke???agak pelik la,pastu kami brani kan diri buat pedicure n pakai short tu depan dia...seyes kami cakap....muka Pn.Aznah mang gila punya cool.xpuas ati pny pasal,kami pn tny la:

"ibu,xpe ke kami pakai camni?"

best jek Pn.Aznah jawab:

"you're a grown up now.you know whats right n not.it's ur life"

OMG.......rupa2 nya ap yg kami aggp Pn.Aznah slama ni t'amat2 la salah...ibu sbnr nya sgt la open minded+funny+loyar buruk cam kami gak.

Omma,jal motthaesso...mianhae~~~

Now i know who the real you is and mana kami perangai sbnr nya....

From the bottom of my heart.....

Thanks mum..and..er.......I Love You????

hahahaha..............

yeah~~~

a note to pn.aznah bt sulaiman

i'd promise myself that i will never cry over you again.but still,i end up crying everytime i talk to you.you know what?you've changed...and it's not a good thing.i know that i may not be a good daughter to you,and i admite that you are more like "mom-with-benefit" to me.but now...everything is not the same.i know that you've hurt so much last times and you want to move on.and so you think that living with her gave you the freedom that you wanted.but still,i know what is really happening.yes i know,she always call you,say that she loves you and she even hugs you. and you see that as a good daughter.but believe me,i know the real her.

you don't believe it?fine...it's your choice.i can tell as much info about her if you want to and then you will decided whose the real fakers are.at least i go real with my own feelings.yes, i don't and can't love you and don't ever ask me why.but still i'm being honest.but her??pffhh....yeah right,she did this and that.okay,don't get me wrong,i'm not saying that she's a bad women.not,she's not because she is also my siblings,just so you know,the feelings that you have for her now is nothing.

if you wanna compare her with the other siblings,you may said that she's an angle,more like she is the only person in the world that love you.you're wrong.i dunno whether you know this or not,but do you know the real reason on why did angah transfer to slim while she can makes tons of money is she continue stays in sabah?it's because of YOU!..she wanted to take care of you that's why she came back to perak.and you told me that she doesn't even invite you to her new home?you know why?it's because she is living with her friends.she told me before that she's planning on searching for a proper house and bring you and ain to stay with her because she knows her responsibility as the eldest child so well.she may act like she doesn't care about you,but she hurt so much everytime she did it.

i know about the news that awang kick you from his house.to tell you the truth,i dunno whether i should believe it or not.because we all know your condition plus i can't really believe you anymore.i wanted to ask,but still i don't want to be intefere.andak ask me once,who should i really believes regarding to this matter but i can't answer him right away.but the truth is,i don't believe any of you because i don't really know the TRUTH.it's hidden somewhere and i still can't figure it out.

just so you know,everyone except me is actually loves you.but they have their own ways of telling it or expressing it.they may seem rude to you but they have no choice.they don't want anything else in this world execept for your love.they need you,they need you to love them just like before when daddy is still around.you told me that everyone is acting weird,more like everybody is changing.again,the truth is,you are the one who is changing.you can compare their loves to you before and after you're sick.it's totally different.and do you know how happy andak,awang and k.erma are when you cook for them?i'm not there but still i can feel how happy they are.they are so happy that you are getting back to your oldself,althought i doesn't botter me at all,but still it's a good thing for them.

MOM,for once,i'm begging you.please open your eyes and see the real world.it's actually not the one that you are in right now.sometimes happiness is not the reality. i'm not saying that everybody else is a bad guy,but i just want you to know that all of them are really loves you.whether you believe it or not,i'm not forcing you.i don't know your condition right now,but i think you must be happy since that you can now stay with your "daughter"....but i just wanna remind you that things can change in a second.no,i'm not saying that she's a bad daughter because i loves her so much and i don't want neither of you to get hurt,but still,it's not something that you should be ease at.

i've stated this for so many times,but still i want to tell you.i know that there's no way you or any of the family members gonna read my blog,moreover this blog.but i wanted to tell you....

THANK YOU....

• thanks for bringing me into this wonderful world,letting me know the real life is.
• letting me know the only daddy and man that ever stay in my heart and love him like crazy.
• for giving me a perfect education,for letting me stay in this wonderful family.
• for giving me a baby brother that i treasure more than anything else.
• for taking care of me when i'm sick back when i'm still a baby.
• for giving me a cute face and petite body.
• for letting daddy to gave me this wonderful name.
• i can't think of anything else but THANK YOU for all that you have done to me.

but there's something that i want to say SORRY for...

• sorry for i can't love you back as much as you do.
• sorry for hurting your feelings with my stupid words.
• sorry for not really taking care of you when you where sick.
• sorry for hating you after all that you've done to me.sorry for feeling afraid of getting married after i saw how you treat daddy when he is sick.
• sorry for lying to you that i believe you 100% since the truth that i don't.
• sorry for i can't be the daughter that you want me to.
• sorry for not being as smart as my brothers and sisters.
• sorry for letting my anger out and end up breaking things.
• sorry for stealing daddy's love,i know that is something that you can't forgive me about.
• sorry for putting your first name for your number in my phonebook.
• sorry for always talking and acting coldly when i'm with you.
• sorry for destroying all your flowers whenever i'm mad.there's sooo much more that i wanted to say,but i can't continue typing because my hands are trembling right now since i cried so much while writing this entry.

you don't need to know everything,just i want you to know 1 things.everyone loves you and they have their own ways of expressing it.and once again,SORRY for not being able to love you back.i'm really sorry......

F**K OFF!!!!

aarrrrggrhh............F*CK OFF!!!!!
gah......i'm so fedup wit u guys....xabis2 mslh nya....yg ko nk ngamok2 ap hal???menopos ke???arrfgghhh....klu la ad ubat kat dunia for a happy family,mang dh lama kami beli,but d probs is xde,tu yg cam ***** jek family ak neh.....sorg prangai camni,sorg lg prangai camni...bole gile ak jd nye tawx??drama xabi2....aduh....juz stop it la,sjk dr kami skola mngh,until now,xabis2 nk b'drama....sinetron pn reti nk brenti...
what do you mean by "jgn jd macam lalang?kejap sn,kejap sini?"....FYI,i have my own oppinion,i'll live my life the way i want it.kami xnk lbey kn mn2 pihak coz 4 me,2-2 blah ad betul n salah nya.klu ko nk kami fully stay on ur side juz because korg sblh ibu,i'm so sorry i can't.why???sebab korg memang dh taw yg kami xbley nk syng ibu.don't ask me why,i just can.bkn nya kami xcuba,i had try,but still i can't....so jgn nk paksa kami.n the other side plak,klu korg nk kami stay with u guys just because u guys r d elders,i'm so sorry,i can't either...why??sbb korg pn ad gak slh nya....ap dia??buka minda,pike2 sndr...korg taw x,1 of d reason nape family ni fall apart is because of fikiran sempit korg....i'm not asking u guys to be liberal,but tolg la open sket minda korg tu....
mang kami xbley nk ckp sume ni dpn korg,y?coz kami still ad rasa hormat seorang adik t'hadap abg2 n kakak2 dia....tapi kami pn xbole nk simpan je dlm hati...damn i wish kami dh fly oversea to further my study,dh xsggp nk blakon dlm drama yg ntah taun bila nk abis...
@*&$%V@*B%HT^*&G^&@$%X#%V()#@&%)($&@............

HATE YOU!!!!

I am fvking hate my family rite now,yeah,u heard me,I HATE 'EM ALL!!!!!!masing2 dgn kpala otak masing2,sorg prangai camni,sorg lagi prangai camni.bila b'gaduh,mula la family b'pecah.yg jadi mangsanya kitorang yg kecik2 ni.sblh pihak suruh pegi belah dia,sblh pihak lagi ckp ikut dorg.let me tell you something okay,I'M NOT IN ANY SIDE.not even the "good" side or the "bad" side.coz 2-2 belah pihak ad pro n contra dorg masing2.i might tell you that i'm in your side,but i'm so sorry,i have to lie.i don't even think that i own a family right now.i've been crying deep in my heart for so long.i just don't wanna tell you guys about it.i lost my family the moment you guys fought with each other.i love all of you and i want my family back,why can't you guys just be honest with each other.

i have a lots of good and sweet memories with all of you.i still remember how angah will play with my hair back when i was little,she'll make all kinds of hairdo for me,and i can say it's the prettiest hairdo in the world.Mat,i still remember the way he hold me when i was crying because daddy won't let me follow him.he comfort me and tell me that it's okay,he's gonna be there and he'll take care of me until daddy come back.he also the one that comfort me the day daddy pass away,telling them he'll be there for me.andak,for me you are the sweetest big brother.you still call me adik even i'm so big right now.whenever you saw me walking home alone,you'll give me a ride with your green bicycle and carry my big+heavy bag on your back.awang,whenever you feel uncomfortable or you feel dizzy,you will always ask me to give you a massage and thanks me when you feel a little better.awin.do you know that i envy you so much back then,because you are so good,you're good in sport,in academic and your pretty too,how i wish i can be like you when i grow up.amar,we have a great memories when we were small.we will play together,do everything together,play in the school pool,and let me tell you something,whenever your drawing were post on the school board,i am so damn proud of you and will tell my friend that this is my brother's drawing.for aiman n ain,well,there's no word than can describe how much i love you guys.i may be harsh sometimes,it's not that i hate you guys,just that i want you guys to be the best and better than me.i don't want you guys to follow my foot step coz i can say that i'm the worse in the family,i can't get into SMKA until i'm in form6,not like other siblings,they are way clever than me,they get into the school after they finish their primary school.n i'm not good in academic,sports anything.i promise you guys that i'll do anything for you even if it cost me my life.

mom,i can tell you that i do have some good memories of you.i still remember how you will bring back guava everytime you go to the market when you know that i love to eat it.you throw me the biggest n the best birthday party in my life when i was 6,you made this delicious cakes,buy a lot of chocolate and invite all my friends.there's much more,but i can't recall any of it because of all the hates that i have in me.i'm sorry mom,i'm really sorry.i've try my best to open up my heart try to love you,but i just can't,it's hard,it feels like if i start to love you and put you inside my heart,you will go away,just like daddy.let me tell you something,i can't love anybody right now because i'm afraid that they'll leave me too.daddy's memories just keep mingling inside of me.i think about him every freaking day.i know you guys feels the same too.we all miss him,and i miss him more because i spend have of my life with,i learn only to love him,so when he's gone,i don't think i belong in this world anymore,it's like god had taken my heart with him.i can't set my mind straight until now.everything is just like a dream to me.everytime i go to sleep,i wish that he'll be there,telling me that it's okay for me to sleep because the angles will be here all night long to take care of me and no monster can come near me.and when i wake up,he'll be there,infront of me.smiling at me and kiss me in the forehead just like he use to do. i gave up eating chocolate because that's the most important things that remind me of him,i went to hatyai,to recall all the memories with daddy.i can still see how stiff we are we he took the picture.i miss his big batik sweater even if i kinda hate it,heh,it's too big for me.

guys,i don't know whether i should say this or not.all of you have a problem with each other.everyone is a grown up here,just think about it.1st thing 1st,never ever judge a book by it's cover.angah,even if awin didn't wear her headgear,that doesn't mean that she's bad.she still takes a good care of me.although sometimes she'll piss me off,but still,it doesn't change the fact that she is always concern about me.try to open your heart to except here,she might be different compare to others,but she have her own way to show her love.awin,i don't know what happen to your past with angah,but what i can say is,she is not as bad as you think she is.she always think about our family since she's the oldest.she always wanted the best.she try to keep the pace between our family and daddy's.losing daddy doesn't mean that we are no longer apart of them.

i know that we have a family meeting everytime,but i just didn't feel it because we're not really telling others on how much we feels.i'm not saying that i love the family meeting because i totally hate it,but i can say that it's really a good thing for us.just don't do it every year,can ah?hehe..

i miss the old times,the time where all of us will sit together and enjoy our meal,the time when we will surround dad and mom,and ask them to tell the story when we're still a kid.everything is nothing now.i can't feel the love no more.i can say that i'm all alone right now.all that i have with me is just memories,memories that will never come back again.never.

RAYA IS OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!

finally...b'akhir jugak penderitaan yg t'paksa zahir n batin kami ni tanggung..aduyai...x,actlly mslh ni bkn nya bsr pn(for some people la)but for me,mslh ni mang BESAR sgt2...mslh nya is....kami ni dh xlm xblk kg,so taun ni raya kn blk kg...disitulah b'mula nya problem kami.sbb klu nk blk kg,i gotta change 100%..mang klu korg tgk kami kat kg n d real me,mang korg rs nk sepak 100 kali la.yelah,kena pakai tudung everytime kuar bilik,xbley pki my regular t-shirt,ckp kn sopan santun...arrggghhh.......ssoooooo fake u know!!!!!aduh...mjr la semua tu dh b'akhir,dorg ajk blk raya haji,wow...trus kami ckp kami ad exam,xbley blk..xsggp seyh...

tp xla spnjg raya ni kami t'siksa,ad gak cite bez..hehe....cam bese la,dh 2 bln xjmp,time cuti camni la klu nk kuar dating pn..huhu...ala,bkn g mn pn,tgk wyng,jln2..bnd bese jek,yg agak bez tuh dpt present,dia bg earing ngan hair clip,tp yg xbez nya,got yellow rose on it,*sigh*,tp kami terima jek...tnx babe..^_^...see u this december...wah...lm lagi seyh...

RAYA KAH??

aigoo....makin dkt nk raya,makin xde nafsu plak...kami pn xtau nape..maybe sbb masing2 dh besar,yg kecik pn gem je la..plak tuh,taun neh aiman n amoi x blk raya skali,lagi la bosan..TT^TT....aduh...mang gila pny malas kami nk blk kg,bkn ap,dh lama gak xblk semat,skali taun neh kn blk plak..kami bkn ap,kami mang xbley masuk sket ngan dorg,macam langit dgn bumi..*sigh*....pyh nk ckp kat sini,tpi mang sgt2 berbeza....hate to say this,but everytime i went there,i had to pretend like i'm somebody else...klu ikut nafsu mang kami nk raya kat kl jek,tapi kang bising plak dorg...balik je la...arrrgghhh!!!!!!!!y can't i be me????

ramadan al-mubarak

ya...ramadan is back!!!!!!!!!!!!

bez nye bln pose neh...mcm2 juadah yg xpenah2 kita tgk sblm neh pn mula la m'nunjukkan diri nya..ytp yg xbez nya....taun neh cam xde nafsu plak nk raya..dh la aiman xde,pastu kn blk kg plak..ha....mls nay..Pn.Aznah...raya kat umah je dh la.....mls nya nk blk pahang....

Goodbye To You My Baby Brother....

04052010........

this is the date where my baby brother will fly to Cairo for 8 years to continue his study....i'm gonna miss him badly.when he return to Malaysia i will be like 30 y.o....(o.0)..huhu...i already promise him that i won't get married until the day he came back to Malaysia.can't let my wings miss my wedding day.....

to Mr. Mohd Noor Aiman a.k.a Aeman Enchem,Noona will always love you!!!!!!!

TO MY ANGEL.......

BOB CARLISLE-BUTTERFLY KISSES

There's two things I know for sure:
She was sent here from heaven and she's
daddy's little girl.
As I drop to my knees by her bed at night
She talks to Jesus and I close my eyes and
I thank god for all the joy in my life
Oh, but most of all
For butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer;
sticking little white flowers all up in her
hair; "Walk beside the pony, Daddy, it's my first ride."
"I know the cake looks funny, Daddy, but I sure tried."
In all that I've done wrong I know I must
have done something right to deserve a hug
every morning and butterfly kisses at night.

Sweet 16 today
She's looking like her mama a little more everyday
One part woman, the other part girl.
To perfume and make-up from ribbons and curls
Trying her wings out in a great big world.

But I remember
Butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer; sticking
little white flowers all up in her hair.
"You know how much I love you, Daddy, But if you
don't mind I'm only gonna kiss you on the cheek this time."
With all that I've done wrong I must have done
something right to deserve her love every morning
and butterfly kisses at night.

All the precious time
Like the wind, the years go by.
Precious butterfly.
Spread your wings and fly.

She'll change her name today.
She'll make a promise and I'll give her away.
Standing in the bride-room just staring at her.
She asked me what I'm thinking and I said "I'm not
sure-I just feel like I'm losing my baby girl."
She leaned over...gave me butterfly kisses with her mama there,
Sticking little white flowers all up in her hair
"Walk my down the aisle, Daddy-it's just about time."
"Does my wedding gown look pretty, Daddy? Daddy, don't cry!"

Oh, with all that I've done wrong I must have
done something right.
To deserve your love every morning and butterfly
kisses-I couldn't ask God for more, man this is what love is.

I know I gotta let her go, but I'll always remember
every hug in the morning and butterfly kisses.

owh...only god knows how much i'm missing my daddy..i dream about him every night and i think about him 24/7.its 3 years already..but i never forget him.how can't i forget My Angel,My Everything???no one can ever love me the same as you do.you never gave up on me,coz you know me more than i know myself.how much i wish i can hug you that day..i've shouldn't leave you there.i leave every single thing that remind me of you.i gave up eating chocolate coz that is one of the most memorable stuff that remind me of you.and i can;t eat it coz i'll be sad i do....Daddy,i just want you to know that you're my everything,my angle,my knight,my life...........I LOVE YOU DADDY...

what shud i do......

entah la,sometimes 2 kami rasa cam nk hilang kn diri neh wat slama-lama nya,i mean lari dari family ngan kwn2, n go 2 different places n start a new lives there.so tat bl dorg sdr tntg k'hilangan kami,br la kami attack dorg 1 by 1,muahahah.........
ha.....bl kami rapat ngan member2,family kami bising,dorg kata kami suka m'blakang kn dorg,tp bl kami try nk share mslh ngan dorg,buat pandg enteng plak,pe cer??? kami sdr,kami neh juz sbgi beban jek tuk korg,sumpah dowh,klu kami neh jutawan,i don't need u guys,korg bley smpn la duit korg tuh bwh bantal ke,dlm tilam ke,kami xkn kaco lgsg!!!!!!!eish....geram nya........
sometimes gak,kami nk jek hurt myself sampai kami hlng ingatan so tat i won't remember any prob tat i have,...ha.....tapi sume 2 kami bley byngkn je la.....coz i'm still waras lg.blom gila lagi........argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!byk nya problem!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

reminisence over u..

ah.....it's that day again.the day that i wish it will nvr come back my life.i wish d wrld cld juz stop rite b4 it hit diz dy.bt i don't have any pwr 2 do tat.diz iz one of d dy tat m8 ma hrt ache so much.......



07 september 1946.....



ni la trkh kramat dimana sorg bayi b'nama abdul rahman dilahirkan.sjk kecik lg ayh dh dilatih utk hidop berdikari,bkn sbb kesempitan idop.tp keadaan Malaya wk2 2 yg still undr jajahan jepun n blom lg merdeka.siblings ayah ad 4 org,2 laki,2 pmpn.ayh ank ke-3,n d one n only yg smbg blaja samapi U.klu ktorg ngadu mls nk g skul ke,jaoh la,xde bas la,ayh slalu cite camne dia kena kayuh beskal sampai 10 km,trn nek bkt lg,kn plak kuar umah sblm sbh smata2 nk sampai skul sblm monin' asmbly.1 thing abt ayah is,he nvr addres his own father as abah ke,walid ke watsoever,tapi ayah pggl aki(atuk) kami,ayah andak.bl ktorg tny nape,dia kt it's on of the wy he show his respect 2 his own father.n ayah pggl uweh(nenek) kami,Nyang.cam org baba pggl mak dorg,Nya Nya.tp kami xtaw la klu uweh 2 baba ke x,tp yg km taw she's a chinese.ad 1 gamba dia kami smpt tgk ms kecik dl,dia mang cantik...... sgt,aki pn encem,smart cam malay warrior g2.



pas abis skul mngh,ayah dpt smbg blaja kat UKM,tym 2 UKM br bk,kira ayah mang pure pny 1st batch stdn la.ayah amik kos Usuluddin(klu xslh kami la),n ms konvo,ayah sorg je pake shades avatar ms nk amik ijazah,bila ktorg tny "nape ayah pakai shade?cikgu xmare ke?"(bdk2 tny),ayah mesti ckp,"t sng la ank2 ayh nk cam ayh",hehe,future minded btol...



pas abis blaja,baru ayah kawen ngan ibu.klu slh kami ms ayah kawen,umur ayah dlm 28 o 29 cam 2 la,tapi ibu muda,19 thn baru....org dolu2 dating tmpt bese jek,plng grand pn kat zoo,2 pn bwk member,kira dble dating la.family ibu memula xtime ayah coz ayah org pahang,kami xtaw la pe ibu bilang sama dia pny family sampi diorg bley time ayah.kami rasa dorg jmp kat kl la,coz ibu mang dari kecik duk kat kl(coz she nvr stay with her real mother,she was raised by her aunt n grdmthr.)pas 2,ayh dpt keja jd lect kat MPI(maktab perguruan islam),n ms stay kat kl 2,along,angah ngan mat lahir.3-3 lahir kat hsptl assunta,3-3 msk tadika raihan.pas mat lahir,ayah dpt plak twrn jd pnlg knn skul.disinilah bermulanya k'hdpn kuarga salehudin sbgi org nomad.mn xnye,stay kat 1 skul 2-3 taun,pas 2 kena plak pndh kat tmpt len.klu dkt2 xpe,ni kena cross 2 3 negri br sampe.60 hari lps kami lahir,ktorg skali lg kn pndh ke negri bwh bayu,coz ayh nek pgkt as pengetua.lama gak r ktorg stay sn,dlm 5 6 taun cam 2,abg2 n akak2 kami sume xreti ckp mlayu bese,ateh,udoh b'gaul ngan org sbh24 jm.lm gak br dorg bley ckp bese.



ayah is a person who will do anytg n avtg 4 his family.i wld say,xpenah skali pn kami rs kecewa ngan ayah,mang sometimes km xbley tima kptsn dia,bt pe yg dia wat 2 sbnr nya btl.wen it comes 2 religious stuff,ayh mang strict,tp klu ajk main, lg gila dr ktorg.hobi ayh sbnr nya nyanyi,sm la ngan ibu,kengkadang 2 bley gdh plak 2-2 org 2,sbb slh lrk la,pitching lari,(klu tym 2 ad rncgn jgn lp lirik,msk kn jek ayh ngan ibu dlm 2).antr gr8 stuff abt ayah is,he alwys show his luv 2 his children,dlm diary ayh,sume buzday ank ayh tls,buzday ibu,anvrsry dorg.kiranya ayh xpenah lp nk smbt buzday ank2 dia.ayah is a romantic guy 2,dia slalu buat2 lupa buzdy ibu,bl ibu tny igt xbuzday dia,ayh mesti buat2 lupa,bg mcm2 alsn la konon nya,pas 2 bila tgh mlm,bl ktorg sume dh tido(tido ke?pdhl sumenye ngendap ayah ngan ibu,hehe..),br ayh bg prsent kat ibu.kengkadg 2 ayah buat2 la suh ibu tmn kn dia g bl brng,tp jgn bwk ktorg(eleh,alsn,nk dating ckp je la).ad 1 set diary yg ayah sediakan tuk ktorg,stiap sorg ad diary msng2,kat dlm 2 la ayh tls avtg abt ktorg,cam bila andak mula jln,1st dy awin msk skul,kira cam life journey ktorg la.n wen it comes 2 my buzday,prsnt ayh simple jek,he juz bought me a box of choc,pandan layer o blueberry cake,n den ktorg akn smbt sm2.i wld say,he will give me choc 4 av gud thing that i've done,cam dpt mrkh bek,dh khatam quran,even klu kami majuk ngan ayah pn,he juz gave me choc,n avtg will be fine..

ayah,i juz want u 2 know smtg.i'll alwys luv u,n u r avtg 2 me.n if i could turn back time,i swear i'll do anytg 4 me even if it's mean tat i have 2 sacrifice my onw life.i love u so much,i won't let anyone 2 t8b ur place in my heart,coz no one can replace u.i can't resist it,i think abt u av sgle day,altho u had left be,but 2 b honest,i always wish tat wen i come home,i wld c u sitting on ur fvr8 couch n smiling n waiting 4 me 2 come home.i still can forgive myself,y shud i left u on ur death bed,n go back 2 my skul,i'm so sorry,forgive me daddy.....

i h8 myself!!!!!!!!

At laz!!!!!!!!!smpi gak kat umah,huh,penat plak blk kl nie,tp cpt,(er...korg paham x?)kali nie kami nek bas dr simpang,bese la,kena la blk umah midnite luver dulu sblm blk umah,n bese nya klu kami nek bas dr taiping ke kl,will t8 abt 4-5 hrs,tp kl nie dlm ms 3 jam lbey jek dh smpi pudu.nk kt bas 2 bwk laju sgt,xde la plak.hm........nape ek?ntah,kami pn xtaw.kami nek bas kol 8:50,smpi pudu kol 12:10,hm.....awl lg nk blk,pe lg,JOM KITA MERONGGENG!!!!!!Destinasi:TIMES SQR!!!!!uish,xsah dowh klu x g sini,diz is 1 of d place where i cn find everything tat i want.ckp jek nk pe,macam2 ada!!!!
Klu dh wiken ni bese la,org fosho la rame,tp km still bley blah org ramai kat times,dr ramai kat midvalley,ya allah,mid valley mang crowded gila klu wiken,dh ala2 chow kit g2.smpi je kat times,tmpt 1st yg kami 2ju,fosho la kdi anty kesayangan,dh sangap sgt neh nk pegang poster 2pm,laz mnth kami dtng,poster 2 xde lg,hopefully kali nie ad la,AMIN.......smpi je kat kdi,mata kami trus terpandang button gamba nickhun,nyah dh pesan awl2 dh suh belikan apa2 sj yg ad gamba nickhun,*grab*,...*searching*......ha!ad button matsujun!!!!!!!*grab* 2 lg 2,huhu.....*usha*........ha!button 2pm!!*grab*...*searching*hm.....xmpk pn hp accessories 2pm,big bang byk r,bkn xnk beli,tp xnk bazir,yg kami ad neh pn still elok lg,*searching*...ha....mouse pad big bang!!!!hm...nk beli ke x ha???nanti la,hari rabu neh nk dtng lg,kat kdi neh mang kurang sket klu nk beli brng2 big bang o 2pm,klu super junior ke,SHINEE ke,TVXQ ke,blambak!!!!!tp syng,sume 2 kami xmnt,klu ad hp merchandise outsider ke,hiro mizushima ke,nk gak grab,xpn wheesung~feels like insomnia,,oooo........~hehe.......cari pny cari,letih la plak,bek tny anty jek “anty,poster 2pm ad x?” “2pm r?xda la moi,sudah hbs,bln dpn br ad.” APA???BULAN DEPAN???!!!!TIDAK!!!!!!!!!!!! sdh tdk sggup ak mnggu utk sepurnama lagi,ak terlalu merindui kalian semua,mengapa mesti bulan depan!!!!!!!!!!!hanya!!!!!!!!!!!! huh,huh.........sabar ank salehudin,ni nama nya cabaran,ne taw nex mnth bley dpt yg lg cun pny,sbr ek........ cdey rasa,T_T....xpe la,xde rezki.....
Dh byr sume nya,g la jenjalan jap,ala,br kol 1 steng,awl lg,hm......windu plak nk mnm caramel cream,g stabak la,stabak ek,bkn stapak!!!!!hm...xrame org pn,wa........rame gak org tgk wayang,ramai nya couple je kami tgk,dorg 2 ntah tgk wayang ke x dlm hall 2,yela,dh ddk dlm glp,paham2 je la!!!!(aduh,dirty mind plak,gomenneh!),hm.....dh lm xtgk wayang,cit pe bez ek?tingin nk tgk setem,ha,ad cite baru Louis koo,nk tgk la nanti,hm...skunk org sbk nk tgk GI JOE,kami nk tgk ninja assassin,tp kn tggu bln 11,lmbt nye....wah...ad cite mlayu bez la,lembing awang pulang ke dayang,cam menarik jek...ala,bln 10 ke,lmbt lg la......*mlepak kat stabak*...........uik dh kol 2,jln2 lg la,wah!ad Japanese food carnival la!cam bez jek sume,ad biskut 2 comey sgt,siap ad bntk bntg lg,try la rs 1 biskut,uek....masin nya!!hm....rs cam nk bl pn ad,km dh grab seaweed time 2,skali tgk kat cold storage pn bley bl,la..asl xhabak awai2,bek cek p bl kat cold storage ja.chet,buang ms jek,bek kami g kdi cd k’sygn,ne taw ad cite br.*searching*.........aaaa........vcd ori smile dh kuar!!!!!!! Ala,39 hengget la plak,xpe la,hr rabu nie br beli.*searching*.....gokusen 3 special edition!*grab*...*searching*....Nodame Contabile!!!!*grab*...*searching*......crows zero 2!!!!!*grab*...alamak...duit xckp la plak......bley grab 1 jek dulu,haih...lp plak nk cocok,hm...nk amik yg mn 1 neh?..*thinking*.......amik nodame la dl,hr rb neh dtng br amik skali ngan smile,*paying*,hm....rs nya xde pape dah,blk la....lalala.....jom blk umah..........STOP!kami neh nk blk ampang ke nk blk tg malim???*thinking*........blk tg la,windu r kat gem.
Arnd kol 4 steng kami smpi tg,tp kn tggu bas kol 5 steng br ad msk umah,*waiting*........smpi kat umah,ad aiman,nsb bek la adik k’sygn kami neh ad,klu x,xtaw la camne km nk msk umah,kami mn ad kunci umah,hehe....(kunci xde pn menonong jek blk)...msk2 dlm umah,YA ALLAH,NI UMAH ORG KE KANDANG BABI???!!!??? Besepah gila nk mampos!!!xbley jd,kena kemas gak ,penat2 dh xkira,*cleaning*....ha....capek seyh......kol 8 lbey br siap sume nye,rht jap sblm g mnd.mang bad luck tol blk kali neh,dh la astro rosak,umah plak satu hapak makanan pn xde.ye la,spnjg kami xde bkn ad sape duk umah pn,ibu mang dah tetap duk umah awang,2 kami xksh sgt,xjmp lg bgs.haih,mujur la ad magi 2 bungkus,bley la kami ngan aiman nk survive tuk mlm neh,esok nk mkn pe?haih....klu kami taw camni jd nya,bek kami stay kat kachi jek,neh dh la penat,mnyakitkan hati lg, bek kami blk ampg slasa neh,Haih~.....apalah nasib,ak si anak gembala......(xde kena-mengena lgsg..).....lapar nya.......

meh sini nak citer...

Dh lama rase nya xtls blog.bkn xde cite,blambak,tapi masa yg xde.terlalu byk yg blaku dlm idop kami,esp tym cuti ari 2.spanjang 2 bln stay kat umah,i faced new things av single day.actly,i don't like talk abt it,it juz make me sad and hurting me inside.tapi,slagi kami xluahkn,slagi 2 la prob ni akn stay in my heart n in d end,akan bernanah..so i better let it go slagi kami mampu.

FYI,my mom sakit.she start with high fever,n in d same tym dia kena menopause.so emosi dia mang teramat2 la sng t'ganggu.bila dia dh sembuh dari demam,character n prangai dia b'ubah 100%.dia jadi makin paranoid,bnd2 kecik pn dia akan risau.dia jd was2 on av single things.dia akan repeat d same thing sampai la dia rs puas hati.dia akan act mcm bdk2,n dia akan tny benda yg simple n stupid kat kita cam klu dia rs lpr,dia akn tny kami dulu,"bley ke ibu mkn?",n klu nk mandi plak,dia akan tny"ibu rs cam nk mnd la,bley x ibu mnd?",(i'm a short temper person,n sume Q 2 was soooo annoying.).lg 1 prangai dia,dia nk sume anak2 dia be with her 24/7.ofcoz la xleh,msng2 ad keja sndr.n penah dia wat prgi,dia halang awin ngan mat dari g keja.klu kami gtaw mesti korg xcaya,but dia penah cekak leher awin so that awin xleh g keja,sian akak ak.dh lm dh ibu skt,agk2 dlm 8 bulan la(msk hari nie),so 4 d 1st 6 mnth yg dia skt 2,my bro n sis yg jg dia.n bila kami stat cuti sem lps,i rushed home once i finish my last final paper.lg 1 prgi ibu neh,bila dtng "angin" dia,dia akn jd hyperactive.ms 2 dia mang kuat ngalah kn masked rider.korg bygkn,ibu kami 2 kurus je(cam sharifah amani)tapi dia bley genggam tgn kami sampai lebam,n klu kami peluk dia,dia bley bolos,imagine that.n bila energy dia dh abis or klu dia dh mkn ubt,baru la dia sedar n bdn dia akn lemah gile.so klu kami makin hamun dia tym dia hyper 2 pn dia xkn sedar,dia jd cam terminator taw,bdn dia b'grk n dia sgt kuat,but not her feelings.lg 1 yg b'ubah is,dia jd syng kat duit,syng yg gila2 pny.xyah ckp la bape kali kami gaduh ngan dia.n penah smpi 1 thp where kami mang dh geram thp cromok,kami pukul dia.tapi tuhan je la yg taw how much i regret abt it.kami taw kami byk sgt dosa ngan ibu.bkn kami xpenah nk cuba syng kat ibu,i tried,but still,i can't.i can't suddenly love someone who i hate since i'm a little kid.
kami xtaw dimanakah posisi kami in ur heart,or maybe i never exist.people said tat a baby will choose his or her parents before she or he was born.if this is true,i will qstn myself back then,"y did i choose u?"ntah lah ibu,i'm not like ur other daughters or sons,all of them r so clever,but not me,klu nk cite hal dulu,1001 mlm pn xabis.i bet,ibu mesti penah nyesal 4 having me dulu kn?i don't know,i'm juz guessing.
di kesempatan ni,slagi kami masih mampu meluahkan prasaan kami,i juz wanna say that i'm so sorry atas sgala yg pernah kami buat kat ibu,either kami sedar or not.halalkan makan minum kami,tnx 4 sudi melahirkan kan kami.kami pernah berjanji 1 masa dulu yg kami xkn nangis dah slps ayah m'nggal.but i break d promise masa cuti hari 2,i cry 4 u,i don't know y,kami cuba tahan,but i can't.klu ibu benci lagi kami after what i had done 2 u,go ahead.i understand,i'll try 2 keep myself away from u as long as i can.cuma jgn la ibu benci dkt ain,she's my baby sister,n i love her with all my heart.again,kami mntk maaf ngan ibu.klu kami xsmpt nk jmp ibu,atleast i've mention it here.lastly,thank you.

Mommy....

mggu ni adlh mggu yg plg cemas spanjang kami becuti nie,my mom msk hsptl sbb epilepsy,dia jth n cut her forehead,kena dlm 2@3 jhtn.mula2 bwk g hos.tg malim,den kna refer plak ke hos.slim river,smpi kat sn,doc suh refe skali lagi ke hos.ipoh coz nk scan kpl dia,takut ad internal bleeeding,smpi ipoh n after scan,doc suh refer blk ke hos.slim river,kat sn,ibu kena tahan for 3 days,n it's my responsibility 2 take care of her,so kami pn b'kmpg la jap kat hospital.boring 2 xyah nk ckp la,kami rasa abis 1 hos 2 kami dh round,dh mcm2 org kami jumpa.ad skali 2 kami jln2 tgh mlm,boring sgt pnya psl,skali lalu wad kanak2,msk jap,saje jek nk usha bdk2 yg ad dlm wad 2(cam jaga la plak,rnd2 hos,hehe...)skali kami nmpk ad sorg baby nie dia kena demam campak,sian sgt,kecik2 lg dh skt,tym 2 ibu dia ngah tido kat sblh,nmpk raut keletihan pada wajah ibu dia,pas 2 mata dia bgkak,mesti dia br pas nangis,sian ibu dia,kami rasa masa kami msk hospital tym kami kecik dulu pn,mesti ibu pn cam 2 kn,(insaf skejap....),dh 2 kami jenjalan nk g blk wad ibu,skali kami nmpk ad org nk bersalin,tgk cam seksa gila pmpn 2 nk tggung kesakitan,suami ngan family dia tggu kat luar optn room, kami rasa ank sulong kot,coz kami t'dgr bapak laki 2 kata "sbar,mula2 besalin mang cam 2,kamu doa je byk2"....muka suami pmpn 2 mang pucat nk mampos,cam dia plak nak besalin,kami tggl kan dorg n trus berjln ke kafe(bkn td kami nk blk wad ibu ke?tetiba slp plak..hehe...)kat kafe dh xde pe yg bley dimakan,mkn beger je la,(tetiba plak tringat beger abg plakon kachi mall...),*makan*........burpp....alhamdllh....truskan perjalanan ke wad ibu,smpi sn,ad doc ngah cek ibu,(ms 2 kol 1 pg,n 1 more thing,sume doc yg b'tugas kat wad ibu nie adlh lelaki n sume nye chinese....hehe....)sembg2 jap ngan doc,tny2 itu,tny ini,tup2 dah kol 3 pg,doc 2 nk blh da,coz syif dia dh abis,xpe la,kami pn tido le...*sleeping*zzzzz..........
d nex day,doc dtg cek ibu kol 8 pg,(doc yg sm kami nyembang smlm)cek pny cek,dia kat ibu dh bley kua,alhmdllh.....trus kami kol awang suh amik ibu....slama 3 hari kami kat hospital,it teach me a lot abt a mother's love..kita xbley nk petikaikan ksh syg mereka,w/pn pd zahir nya dorg x tnjk,tapi secara batin nya,kasih syg dorg 2 t'amat la besar...so from now on, i'll try my bez 2 luv u mom.....thanks 4 everything.......

Hari Ibu

hari ibu dtng lagi!so sebagai anak yg baik(hehe......)semestinya lah kita akan clbr8,rite?FYI,ni 1st time kami smbt mothers day,y?i have my own reason..so,don't ask,k!so....hari sabtu ari 2 kami g pekan,igt kn nak beli coffee cake,tapi igt plak ibu dh xbley mkn coffee,so kami beli la yg biasa nye.otw nk blk 2,nk dijadikan cite,kami jth dlm bas,adus....sakit seyh.....bengkak2 gak r bdn,lebam sblh tgn kami,tapi 2 sume xmenghalang kami utk clbr8 mothers day.sampe umah,ibu xnmpk kek yg kami bwk,sorok kat luar dulu.masa 2 ibu,gem ngan opah nak pegi kenduri kawen adik mazidul,so time ni lah nk smpn kek dlm fridge.tggu ibu balik,*waiting*1/2hrs l8r,ibu balik.kami wat bodo jek,coz nk tggu andak balik,nk clbr8 2gtr.......sekali lagi bad thing happen,masa 2 ibu g main ngan bunga kat luar,gem xtgk tv sesame ngan kami(coz balik dari kndri td dia beria suh tukar cartoon),pelik..??sekali gem dtg,aik..asal ada krim kat pipi gem neh???GEM!!!!!!!!!!! aduss...dia curi2 mkn kek 2,panas seh.!!!sekali kami cek,icing atas kek 2 dh licin.!bagus pny adik..sekali andak balik....*makan* igt nk smbt pas mkn,skali ibu dh tido plak,.haih...tggu esok je la...

esok nye,ibu kejut kami,katanya opah mntk tolg kami msk kan nasi lemak,adus...br kol 8,nantok lagi neh...dh la ngah sejuk tahap gaban(bese la,umah tepi sg la katakan)nak xnk kena bgn,kang klu opah dtg,kami xbgn lagi,siap la kena ceramah al-kuliyyah free.*masak*dh siap 2,ktorg pn bekpas la sesame,(hm..i think this is d rite time!)sekali ibu tido balik!(FYI,ibu xbape sihat....)haih....sekali.."assalamualaikum"...ha..opah dh dtg,mujur nasi dh masak.opah dtg bwk ayam golek..fuhhh...bau dia sedap nak mampos!tapi ibu xmkn ayam,so ktorg la tukang ngabis kan nyek!sekali andak dh balik,dia kena g opis kt nya....so tatz left only me n gem,pas je opah blk,trus kami bwk kuar kek,smbt lah kami 3 anak branak..hehe.... 2 la kngan 1st tym smbt mthrs day,i hope 4 ibu pny upcoming buzday,ktorg adik-beradik bley gather n gave her d most unforgettable birthday ever......lastly,ibu,we love you,we always do....

Sweet Couple

hari 2 kami ngemas umah,dh lama xblk la kt kn,masa kami xde pn ibu ngan gem bkn duk Sg Bill.dorg duk umah awang,kengkadang g johor.so..mang letih gila la ngemas,umah besar 2(bagi kami my house dh cukup besar coz kami suka umah yg kecik2 jek,cam umah org jepun 2,comey!)tgh2 ngemas 2 kami ternampak la pic2 lama,gamba masa ayah grad,masa ibu ngan ayah kawen,tym kami kecik,mang sume ad.i miz all d swit mmnts.ad 1 pic 2 ibu ngan ayah g dating,fuh...org dolu2 g dating kat zoo jek,hehe,cb suh dak2 zmn skunk g zoo,nk deme?huh,xkesior nye..mang swit sgt ibu dlm pic 2,

ni plak pic masa ayah grad,ayah pny graduation ceremony was d 1st UKM convocation.huhu..bangga seh...ad dlm 1 pic rerame 2,ayh pake shade,huhu...avatar 2 ...tapi smpt nk upld pic 2....

gledah pny gledah,jmp lg pic aiman masa umor dia 3 taun,tersangat2 la comey nye....sampe skunk pn encem adik kesayangan ku itu..huhu....

gamba pake bj merah 2 tym ktorg otw nk blk terengganu dari temerloh(my dad hometown),yang ngah cangkung 2 kat Indonesia(tym 2 cm ibu,ayah ngan aiman je pegi,kami xpegi coz tym 2 kami skul,amik ko,sminggu ayah pegi,sminggu 2 la kami demam,bila ayah blk jek,bek trus demam tuh,huhu..2 la 1st tym merasai demam windu,huhu....)

byk lg pic lm,tapi xkn la kami nk upld sume pic dlm album kot kn?haih..sedar xsdr,dh besar rupa nya ank salehudin neh,dh bleh kawen neh,hehe..("abg encem",i want nobody,nobody but you.....) id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5332993887803179362" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 222px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 320px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgSaqcAXLYmWrVM28CmpJCD55M8LuqLwNbAJng9LDFwQCSihdbPEikIGqlWA8taQkIxjLiQZfsaLTcG2EooAIgncIiaRgi8XyN6V3WtGdjUtn-Ux7ghWVywqgy4nG-3qOOoFLxxKh_jQvqn/s320/nii01.jpg" border="0">

Weekend at Johor..

Well, here I am…..spending my study week at my bro’s home in johor. Most of my friend thought tat I’ll be having fun here, but actly I’m not. FYI, my mum is not feeling well, what’s her disease, I can’t really say it. Kind of mystery, sort of, so I’ll take good care of her until I go back 2 UUM. Well, it’s one of my responsibilities as a daughter, and I’ll never regret it.
Hah! enuf wit tat, nw I’ll tell u guys about my journey. I took a train from alor star with Trexx on 10th april, she stop at Rawang coz her parents all ready waiting 4 her there, well I continue my trip until the last station,kl central. It was 6:00am, still early as the 1st train 2 johor is on 08:30am.hm……wat 2 do? well, I rest in the surau first, 15 minutes l8r,I did my subuh prayer.well,still early dowh,hm……..i think I’ll go and take my brakefast,hm…….it’s only Mc’D that open, ok la…..ala,I smell coffee once I enter Mc’D, well, I’m a coffee hater, and that really turn off my appetite. So I juz walk away, hm…..i think i’ll wait at the ticket counter, omg, there’s all ready a lot of people there, each with their own journey, but there’s a problem, it’s going offline! Ala……we had 2 wait 4 abt ½ hour before we can purchase our ticket, haih….waiting…………….. 30 MINUTES LATER………. Still no progress, so they have 2 do it manually, well, juz do anything so that I can get myself 2 JB…..ok, got the ticket, It’s 07:30am, still got an hour b4 departure, hm….waiting………..
“ladies and gentlemen, train number 5 heading to Singapore on 8:30am is now available on platform no 2, thank you”
Ahah! That’s my train..better get on it now…….train is moving now…….well, not much stuff can be done in a train, so I’ll just stay in my place and watch movies( they got a flat screen it the train,sweet heyh!)train moving, it pass negeri Sembilan, Malacca, and lastly I arrived in jb at 2:30, call my bro…..wait 4 him to come and pick me, arrived home, take a bath, and I went straight to my bed, capek seyh…….sleeping…………………………………………………….omg, it’s 9 olredi! Gila,sah2 kami penat tahap gaban....huargh…ngantok lagi sbnr nye neh..mlantak sat,nyum…….burp…Alhamdulillah, jom smbg tido!!!!!!!
Well,nhtg unusuall happen on day 2,same gak,duk umah,neh mang rehat nak mampos r, bkn ap, I juz nid a really gud rest and prepare myself 4 d upcoming final.ad la baca FP sket2,(2 pn xsampe 10minit),d rest,tgk tv,qada blk MTV yg kami tinggal selama neh. (oh my darling Utt, u still look sexy…aaahhh…….)hehe…..sorry 4 tat “I’m so sorry, but I love you it’s a lie”(big bang-lies). Mlm 2 mat mntk tlng g beli beger, ala,dkt je beger stall ngan umah kami, blakang umah jek.beger dia ad mcm2 plhn, ad beger black pepper,honey,cheese, madu 3 pn ad!huhu…..dh beli2 sume,kami pn blk la,igt nk ikut shortcut jek,kami pn jln la smbl mendengar lagu KAT-TUN,RESCUE,”I don’t wanna cry alone, help me out searh my life, pliz take me back home”hm…sdp plak sore akanishi jin neh..suddenlly,there were shadows of 3 huge and scary creatures waiting and looking fierce rite into me, tapi kami bley plak xpasan coz ngah khusyuk dgr lagu KAT-TUN. Tetiba kami dgr benda 2 menyalak,OMG,besar nye anjg!!!! Gila seyh,dorg kejar kami! Xkn la kami nk stay g kat ci2 smbl men ba2 seremban kan?LARI LA!!!!!korg byg kn,anjg 2 tggi dia sama paras ngan pinggang kami.mang blari xckp tanah la, ad sekor 2 hampir nak gigir baju kami tapi xdpt(neh la guna nya excersice slalu kat kachi..huhu….excersice ke????) lari punya lari,anjg 2 dh hlng pn,ffuuuhhh…..terpaksa la kami ikut jaln jauh,haih…..pyh gak kalu kwsn byk anjg neh,dh la besar2 sume nye,2 klu dowg dpt gigit kami td, sah2 kurus, slim ngalah kan Nicole scherzinger.haha!!kami pn terus kn la perjalanan menuju ke teratak kekanda ku,huhu…..jln pny jln skali,G*****G! anjg2 2 tggu kami kat smpg dkt ngan umah kami,adus,dah cam samseng kampong talang la plak,ala,camne nak blk neh??ishk,ishk….skali ad sekor anjg selang 2 buah dari umah kami nyalak,kami xtaw la pe dia ckp ngan anjg 3 eko 2,tp pas dia nyalak tuh,anjg2 2 pn blah,mana xnye,anjg dkt umah kami 2 jenis anjg yg polis guna 2,besar tuh….mgkn la dia gtaw kat anjg2 3 ekor jgn kaco ahmoi chantek neh,ahakz!hehe…….pas 2 pe lg,kami trus belari blk umah,sampe umah,mat tny “asal lmbt?” kami ckp la kena kejar ngan anjg,bley plak dia bg nsht ala fadhilah Kamsah,”2 la,nex tym bwk la kayu ke, ap ke” ye kan je la,dh mkn2 tuh, tgk2 tv jap, pas 2 masuk tido,capek seyh kena kejar ngan anjg.zzzzz…………..
Next day……
Pagi neh kami g beli ns lemak kat area2 tmn neh gak,ns lemak dia sdp, Cuma sambal dia pedas sket, tgh2 km jln tuh,baru kami pasan,ad 2 perkara yg unik kat tempat neh. 1st,klu korg jln2 pagi2, korg akan nmpk ramai warga emas berjoging.mak cik2, nenek2 mang rajin berjoging, siap pake tracksuit,running shoes,sume complete.patut la org kat sini sihat2 belaka,pas 2 dorg rajin menegur org,ramah sgt. Tapi klu korg rs nk cuci mata, korg g la tmn ke jenjalan ptng2,nmpk la anak2 muda berjoging plak,hehe……. 2nd,kat sini dorg suka bela anjg ngan kucing,kucg dorg, Ya Allah,chomey nk mampos!!!!!! Plak 2, bkn kucing bodo2 dibelanya, kucing parsi,British Longhair, mix Siamese, cam2 lg la.bulu kucing neh,xyah cite la,lembut,bersih,wangi,gebu sesangat.mang bersih gila la dorg bela.kutu ofcoz la xde,telinga dorg bersih jek…lg 1,dorg bley jek lepas kucing2 neh men2 kat tgh jln,ishk,klu ikut nafsu tapir kami neh, dh lama kami culik kucg2 neh bwk blk Sg.Bill,adus…ARGHHHH,NAK KUCING!!!!!!!(kucg kami yg tgl kat umah 2 sami jek,yg len dah kiok,yg sekor 2 pn megol2 dah.)
Well, 2 la rutin ank salehudin kat sini.bila nk balik kachi?entah la,tiket xbeli lg.(dari pagi tadi sampe skunk, dh dkt 10x MTV pasg lg baru se7en neh,cuba la psng lg Big Bang ke, Arashi ke,kn sdp sket,suka la nyah tuh…)hm…..rasanya xde papa dh kami nk membebel kat sini,sok2 klu ad cite aneh lagi hairan,kami tulis la lg ek,skunk kami nk abis kn tgk I Am Sam.huhu…da……
TOP OPPA! MAHAL NA MAHAL KITA!!!!!!

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smlm aiman mesej kami,tny kami blk x?kami ckp la xblk coz yg cuti 2 dak skul,U mn sm cuti ngan dak skul (except UPSI la kn..)dia gtaw,dia dtg kedah,ad karnival sukan kat Jitra,kat SM Sultan Abdul Halim.dia wakil skul dia 4 acara balapan.kami pn teramat la teruja nya,ye la,dh lama kami xjumpa adik kesayangan ku i2...

14 MARCH 09(SABTU)

Kami ajak amal g usha Aiman,windu r ngan dia...ngeee......(^_^).....amal Ko-K pagi,kami Ko-K ptg,smpt la g jumpa dia sblm time Ko-K.kol 12:30,kami,amal,nyah n jue pn gerak la ke Jitra,kami ngan yakin nye konpem yg kami taw skul 2 kat ne,coz seingat kami skul 2 kat tepi jalan,depan Pizza Hut.....driving.................sampai ke destinasi yg dituju,eh?asal skul len??? "u ni betul ke konpem skul 2 kat cnie b?",alamak,td ak gatw amal ak taw skul neh kat ne..hehe.... "yunk,cuba u jln dpn sket,kot2 skul dia kat dpn sket kot"..driving................... ha! jumpa pn,jao sket dr bndr Jitra.cari parking.......jumpa pn......ha,FYI,kami x gtaw pn kat aiman yg kami nk dtg jmp dia ari neh,nak seprais dia la kenkonon....kami kn suka seprais2 kn org neh.sampai kat skul.budak2 ngah lunch,xpe la,tggu la kjp.smntr 2 jln2 la dulu arnd skul 2.teringat plak zmn dak2 skul dulu...hm.....kami neh dulu kat skul mang nakal sket,ala normal la dak skul nakal kn???.....smbl2 2 usha gak kot2 la ad nampak member2 aiman ke.kami try kol dia byk kali tp xagkt,ala.....jgn ckp dia xde kat skul plak......duk sat,penat la plak.amal,nyah n jue dah berangan dah,sorg jd cikgu(jue),sorg jd prefect coz bj dia warna purple (amal) n nyah jd murid jek,siap amik gamba posing cam dak2 form 1 nk msk mgzn skul 2,xthn2.......

jam dh kol 2,batg idong adek ak neh xnmpk2 pn lg,ishk,mana dak encem neh,kol x agkt,kang klu kami msk dlm aspura 2 kang menjerit plak dak2 tuh,xpe la,tggu la kejap.....tym 2 br nk stat football match...maybe dia dtg kot kat pdg 2,..waiting.......ala..lama nya.......amal ajk kami g jenjalan ke aspura,kot2 la bley jmp aiman,kami ikot jela,coz slagi kami xjumpa aiman kami xnk balik!!!!ngah jenjalan tuh,tetiba........HA! 2 dia my lil' bro,oh,rupa2 nya ba3 HP dia kong...ptt la kami kol xdpt.....kami nyembang2 la ngan aiman,cam2 gak topik yg dibincangkan......nyembang......almk,dh kol 4!!!hm.....burn la KO-K kami.....salam2...SNAP!......(wajib tuh...)

ktorg pn gerak la g Jitra nak melantak,masing2 xmkn pagi lagi....huhu......sesudah melantak,g la jenjalan kat Jitra Mall,ad booth jual brg2 thai,ad suar,baju,skirt,cam 2 lagi la.ms ngah mengusha 2,ternampak plak ikram kat c2,ekeleh mamat neh,kat starbuck nmpk dia,kat cniey pn nk tyg muka ke??ap nk wt,besar mana la sgt jitra neh,golek2 jumpa gak,wat bodo je la......kami as usuall la,akn mengusha earing dulu.wa....ad 1 earing 2 cun gak.amik la,3 hengget je pn.niat nye nak g men bowling,skali usha penuh la plak......g karok jamban la...hm....penuh gak...(xserik2 plak dh kena kat changloon ari tuh).pusg2 jap......xde menda dh,gerak blk la...amal nk g cuci keta kat changloon.ala...rame plak org kat kdi cuci keta,xpe la,tggu je la...waiting..............lama gak,ktorg sampe kol 6,kol 7:20 br keta siap cuci,tp puas ati la,cuci luar n dlm 9 hengget.jom blk,tetiba amal ngidam nk minum air tebu,ala sayg ak neh,mana la nk cari air tebu tym2 cam neh???? "u lupa ke?ari neh kn psr mlm kat kachi" oh oh ek,xigt plak.sampi kachi,g psr mlm,blk bilik,g lab jap,blk bilik,makan,tido,sok klas pg,klas DR lg,bley la usha leng chai,ahakz..~~~~huhu........see u 2moro leng chai.......da......

LUV,BECKTOP..XOXOX....

ching gue..tomodachi...family....jia ren..

it'z hard for a person to live in this world without loving a person,same 2 me,so 4 diz post ,i want 2 say HONTTO NI ARIGATO GOZAIMASE to all d people who had make my life more meaningfull..

me and my soul nyah a.k.a ruzanna

kitorang 1st jumpa after orientation wik kat UUM,memula jumpa 2 bese la,shy2 cat lg,beside tym 2 dia rapat ngan Trexx,so kami xamik port la sgt.after 2,3 kali jumpa,ktorg jd rapat,plak 2 bila kami dapt taw yg kitorang ad byk persamaan(2-2 gila Estranged),so datz wat make us more comfortable with each other.n kekadang 2 kitorang bley pike menda yg sama at the same time,pelik kn?but itz true.so datz y i call her my soul nyah....dulu berangan nk jadi awek andy Estranged,tapi kami taw,itz not gonna come true,so skunk dia dh jumpa new lover,se7en plak.so skunk ngah kemaruk ngan choi dong wook 2 la.nk wat dia lg begang,kami wat alarm kami lagu se7en-la la la,so pepagi 2 nk xnk dia kena bangun jgk la(nyah neh ssh nk bgn pagi,4 her waktu pagi 2 adlh after 11am,ikut waktu Korea kt kn.huhu...cowi nyah...)

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this is me n my imouto,Gem a.k.a Ain

diz iz my lil' sis,Gem a.k.a Intan Nurul Ainin.my 1 n only lil' sister.all i can say iz,she's d most precious person in my life after my daddy.skunk umo dia 10 tahun,gem ni lahir xcukup bln,so dia slow learner sket,oltho umo dia 10 tahun,tapi otak dia cam budak 7,8 tahun.cakap gagap,tapi klu nk marah org,laju je mulut dia,klu kat umah 2 mang dia la buah hati pengarang jantung nye.perangai 2 kengkadang cam org tue pn ad.lawak2.... addic ngan kaler pink.ad skali 2 awin ngan ibu bwk dia g shopping kasut,macam2 dh dorg tnjk,Adidas,Bubble Gummers, juz name it,sume dia reject,alasan dia,none of the kicks are pink,laz2 dia g plh kasut Disney Pooh yg warna pink,huish...dahsyat tol ko gem.so nk xnk,dorg amik jugak la kasut 2.cam2 lg la al-kisah dak comey neh,tp t klu kami type kat cnie kang,bley wat Arabian 1000 nights version 2 plak.hehe....CAYANG GEM!!!

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cun x???????

ha.....ni kakak kami,cun kn?????tgk la kakak sape.....oltho kami ad 2 org kakak,tapi kami rasa kami lg rapat ngan awin,k,la,cite la sket pasal ahmoi chantek neh...nama dlm surat beranak Intan Hawarin,tapi family kitorang pggl awin,dulu masa kecik2 ayah panggil "degawin" huahua...cam nm burung jek...so bila dh remajhe,pggl awin la.umo?hm...xigt la.bape ek..oh ya! dia same umo ngan Matsujun,25 tahun.awin neh nmpk je ayu,cuma korg sembang ngan dia,huh...merepek lagi tahap gaban dari kami.dia dulu dak UITM Melaka,so dia teramat-amat la bangga ngan UITM dia 2.....dia neh ad 1 persamaan ngan my soul nyah,kengkadang dia bley pike ap yg kami pike at the same time..huh...dahsyat tahap alam semesta la korg....keja kat Hong Leong tower,ala,sblh Orange jek.dulu awin ad wat 1 company katering ngan member dia,pas abis STPM ad kami keja ngan diorang,ye lah,sementara tunggu result nk msk U,kitorang nya opis kat Semenyeh Sentral,so kitorg wt katering tuk opis2 kat Putrajaya.bez gila korg,caye@tidak,kitorang penah arrange kn breakfast tuk mitin Najib,bkn 1,bkn 2,tapi byk kali gak.Bukan nk blagak,tapi kami juz nk gtaw,oltho company awin is juz a small company,but we manage 2 serve Malaysia's 2nd men(Bakal PM kita).so,all d creditz goes 2 u my dear...syabas mere betty...awin dulu penah gak keja ngan San Fransisco Coffee as Barista,lama gak dia keja ngan San Fran.tapi bila dh lama 2,dia tingin nak keja opis plak,beside dl ms kat UITM dia amik kos Ofis Mngmnt.2 yg skunk dia keja ngan Hong Leong Insurance.Dia la 1-1 nye kakak kami yg tahan ngan perangai kanak2 Tora kami neh,Arigato Onee-chan!!!

so,2 la diantara org2 yg banyak mewarnai idop kami,byk lg sbnr nya,tapi i think i cont in d next post la.kang tulis pnjg2 bkn nye kome bc,wat penat je kami naip.....

till then,luv urself,ur family,n ur fren,I LOVE U TOP!!!!!