sashiburi....

wa.......rs nya dh b'kurun x tls blog.bkn pe,xde masa.sjk blk cuti raye ari 2,bzzzzz je manjang.jd smntr ad ms sket neh,bley la nk m'bebel 2 3 perenggan.hm.....wat shud i stat with???
oh ya,1st, cam bese la,every convo ktorg akan perform tuk koir.same s diz sem,n sem neh ktorg bwk lg len sket,i believe (il divo ft Celine Dion),untuk nusa bangsa (Ginggerbread), yue lai xiang, n d rest are our ol' song.quite m'cbr gak r sem neh nya perf,ktorg kn bwk lg france n mandarin. well mandarin is not a big prob 4 me, but 4 other tat is not chinese, they maybe had a lil' bit difficulties, but it doesn't matter coz d perf turn out amazing.tp ad plak part yg xbezh nyeh, pihak UUM dh invite choir 4m philippines 2 make a spcl perf on d 1st day.WTF!!! dorg mang dh profesional, ktorg yg amatur neh mang xt'lwn la.tp mujur dorg ok,so puas hati gak r.

2nd,i pas thru aiesec booth at lib 1 day n i saw them promoting on going exchange 2 china n taiwan,hm.....this looks interesting.so i sign up 4 their info session.dgr dorg xplain avtg abt diz xchge stuff, syok gak,so i cont 4 d 2nd steps,tat is EPRB, tym neh dorg akn intrview kt,nk tgk mind set kt neh bley xadapt ngan environment kat sn.n guess wat...I PASS!!!! mang happy sesangat lah.amoi la la happy, bl kami gtaw jek kami dpt g china,trus dia kol,huhu...i love you amoi!!!!klu ikut prancangan awal, maybe 20/11 neh kami g, n blk xkonfem lg bl coz nmpk gaya nya cam kn tkr tarikh plak.hm.....so skunk neh mang bz la nk siap kn paspot,visa,med chk-up,n bl kami smpi sn dh bln november, ain't it suppose 2 b winter there???wa.......tringin plak nk main snow,huhu.......

PARK JAEBOM.......kajima.....

i dunno if diz is rite o wrong,but my heart hurt soooo much...it's like sum1 had stab me rite in my heart.it may snd stupid 2,but i feels like crying, from d moment i heard tat bad news until now,i dunno how long i cn hold my tears.Y???????? Y did u guyz had 2 b fucking cruel 2 him?did he ever done anytg wrong 2 u guys????

i'm talking abt 2pm beasty n cutey leadja,PARK JAEBOM.he juz an innocent kids,4 me,wat he did is a normal thing.he juz feels lonely, suddenly being in a new place where u knw notin' abt it will totally m8 u wanna go back 2 ur hometown,besides,he has no one 2 talk 2 .y did u guys had 2 hacked in2 his personall message???if i'm an officer,i will definetly put u guys in2 jail o hang u guys 2 death!!!!i mean it!!!n using ur stupid n narrow-minded brain,u,anti-fan,sign a petition 4 jay 2 commid suicide?WTF!!!GTH!!! n when thing olredi getting worse,u guys simply juz say tat ur sorry,MFB,nobody gonna buy tat n we will nvr 4give u.look wat've u done,jay oledi quit 2pm and gone back 2 seattle.arrgghhh...........i'm so damn piss off rite now!!!!!!!!!!patut nya kami santau jek netizens2 bodo 2,bia mampos!!!!muahaha!!!!!!!!!!!bia korg rasa pe yg jay rasa!!!!!!xpn guna vodoo jek,srh sume an2 yg ad kat dunia neh rasuk korg,bia meracau sampai hembusan yg t'akhir!!!!!!waargghhhh..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

jay,pliz come back,HOTTEST LUV SOOOOOO MUCH......2pm is notin' w/o u.like wooyoung said,2pm isn't abt 7 guys,it's abt a person.n u,d leadja,is d head of 2pm,how cn a person live w/o a head???so pliz...don't m8 us sign a petition 2 boycott ol 2pm career juz 2 m8 u come back.damn,if i'm in korea now,i'll definetly join d boycott at JYP studio..jay,pliz come back....we need u....ONLY U.................jay,if only i can b ur angle,protect u from d pain n danger....

reminisence over u..

ah.....it's that day again.the day that i wish it will nvr come back my life.i wish d wrld cld juz stop rite b4 it hit diz dy.bt i don't have any pwr 2 do tat.diz iz one of d dy tat m8 ma hrt ache so much.......



07 september 1946.....



ni la trkh kramat dimana sorg bayi b'nama abdul rahman dilahirkan.sjk kecik lg ayh dh dilatih utk hidop berdikari,bkn sbb kesempitan idop.tp keadaan Malaya wk2 2 yg still undr jajahan jepun n blom lg merdeka.siblings ayah ad 4 org,2 laki,2 pmpn.ayh ank ke-3,n d one n only yg smbg blaja samapi U.klu ktorg ngadu mls nk g skul ke,jaoh la,xde bas la,ayh slalu cite camne dia kena kayuh beskal sampai 10 km,trn nek bkt lg,kn plak kuar umah sblm sbh smata2 nk sampai skul sblm monin' asmbly.1 thing abt ayah is,he nvr addres his own father as abah ke,walid ke watsoever,tapi ayah pggl aki(atuk) kami,ayah andak.bl ktorg tny nape,dia kt it's on of the wy he show his respect 2 his own father.n ayah pggl uweh(nenek) kami,Nyang.cam org baba pggl mak dorg,Nya Nya.tp kami xtaw la klu uweh 2 baba ke x,tp yg km taw she's a chinese.ad 1 gamba dia kami smpt tgk ms kecik dl,dia mang cantik...... sgt,aki pn encem,smart cam malay warrior g2.



pas abis skul mngh,ayah dpt smbg blaja kat UKM,tym 2 UKM br bk,kira ayah mang pure pny 1st batch stdn la.ayah amik kos Usuluddin(klu xslh kami la),n ms konvo,ayah sorg je pake shades avatar ms nk amik ijazah,bila ktorg tny "nape ayah pakai shade?cikgu xmare ke?"(bdk2 tny),ayah mesti ckp,"t sng la ank2 ayh nk cam ayh",hehe,future minded btol...



pas abis blaja,baru ayah kawen ngan ibu.klu slh kami ms ayah kawen,umur ayah dlm 28 o 29 cam 2 la,tapi ibu muda,19 thn baru....org dolu2 dating tmpt bese jek,plng grand pn kat zoo,2 pn bwk member,kira dble dating la.family ibu memula xtime ayah coz ayah org pahang,kami xtaw la pe ibu bilang sama dia pny family sampi diorg bley time ayah.kami rasa dorg jmp kat kl la,coz ibu mang dari kecik duk kat kl(coz she nvr stay with her real mother,she was raised by her aunt n grdmthr.)pas 2,ayh dpt keja jd lect kat MPI(maktab perguruan islam),n ms stay kat kl 2,along,angah ngan mat lahir.3-3 lahir kat hsptl assunta,3-3 msk tadika raihan.pas mat lahir,ayah dpt plak twrn jd pnlg knn skul.disinilah bermulanya k'hdpn kuarga salehudin sbgi org nomad.mn xnye,stay kat 1 skul 2-3 taun,pas 2 kena plak pndh kat tmpt len.klu dkt2 xpe,ni kena cross 2 3 negri br sampe.60 hari lps kami lahir,ktorg skali lg kn pndh ke negri bwh bayu,coz ayh nek pgkt as pengetua.lama gak r ktorg stay sn,dlm 5 6 taun cam 2,abg2 n akak2 kami sume xreti ckp mlayu bese,ateh,udoh b'gaul ngan org sbh24 jm.lm gak br dorg bley ckp bese.



ayah is a person who will do anytg n avtg 4 his family.i wld say,xpenah skali pn kami rs kecewa ngan ayah,mang sometimes km xbley tima kptsn dia,bt pe yg dia wat 2 sbnr nya btl.wen it comes 2 religious stuff,ayh mang strict,tp klu ajk main, lg gila dr ktorg.hobi ayh sbnr nya nyanyi,sm la ngan ibu,kengkadang 2 bley gdh plak 2-2 org 2,sbb slh lrk la,pitching lari,(klu tym 2 ad rncgn jgn lp lirik,msk kn jek ayh ngan ibu dlm 2).antr gr8 stuff abt ayah is,he alwys show his luv 2 his children,dlm diary ayh,sume buzday ank ayh tls,buzday ibu,anvrsry dorg.kiranya ayh xpenah lp nk smbt buzday ank2 dia.ayah is a romantic guy 2,dia slalu buat2 lupa buzdy ibu,bl ibu tny igt xbuzday dia,ayh mesti buat2 lupa,bg mcm2 alsn la konon nya,pas 2 bila tgh mlm,bl ktorg sume dh tido(tido ke?pdhl sumenye ngendap ayah ngan ibu,hehe..),br ayh bg prsent kat ibu.kengkadg 2 ayah buat2 la suh ibu tmn kn dia g bl brng,tp jgn bwk ktorg(eleh,alsn,nk dating ckp je la).ad 1 set diary yg ayah sediakan tuk ktorg,stiap sorg ad diary msng2,kat dlm 2 la ayh tls avtg abt ktorg,cam bila andak mula jln,1st dy awin msk skul,kira cam life journey ktorg la.n wen it comes 2 my buzday,prsnt ayh simple jek,he juz bought me a box of choc,pandan layer o blueberry cake,n den ktorg akn smbt sm2.i wld say,he will give me choc 4 av gud thing that i've done,cam dpt mrkh bek,dh khatam quran,even klu kami majuk ngan ayah pn,he juz gave me choc,n avtg will be fine..

ayah,i juz want u 2 know smtg.i'll alwys luv u,n u r avtg 2 me.n if i could turn back time,i swear i'll do anytg 4 me even if it's mean tat i have 2 sacrifice my onw life.i love u so much,i won't let anyone 2 t8b ur place in my heart,coz no one can replace u.i can't resist it,i think abt u av sgle day,altho u had left be,but 2 b honest,i always wish tat wen i come home,i wld c u sitting on ur fvr8 couch n smiling n waiting 4 me 2 come home.i still can forgive myself,y shud i left u on ur death bed,n go back 2 my skul,i'm so sorry,forgive me daddy.....

Y?KENAPA?WEI SHE ME?PUR QUE?????

i had made an agreement with myself,i will no longer have any feelings to nuhar,i just want us to be friend,not more than tat.it's not tat i have found someone new,but 1 day,i ask myself "y m i keep thinking abt her?does she really feel the same way as i am?totally not! juz like 2pm song,again n again,i keep coming back 2 u,but i don't know y?.so from now onwards,we're juz friend,TITIK!!.
end of 1 issue,but there still 1 more issue that bothering me rite now.i don't know wen n y i start missing u.althought u were rite there standing infront of me,i already feels like something so heavy stuck in my heart.y m missing u............y???????

oh.....nasi lemak...

semalam amal ajk kami msk nasi lemak,tingin kata nya,kami pn ok jek,lgpn dh lm xmsk,windu sbnr nya nk msk dapur.dlm kol 3 lbey ktorg g psr changlun,kami bajet tym2 camne fosho la psr dh tutup,tp sml ktorg g psr br buka,hebat..hebat.....
jln2 cr brng,cem bese la,bhn2 yg diperlukan,bajet nk wat smbl sotong,tp tetiba kami nmpk udang kat situ cam menyelerakan jek,grab udang r,beside skilo 14 jek,tp xde la ktorg bantai bl sampai skilo,bl 5 hengget jek,2 pn tuk 5 org makan dh t'lbey.*shopping*.....sume bhn2 dh ad?jom kt blk,tp sblm 2 kn la sggh cavilion dolu,wajib tuh,wlupn juz nk beli tapis kelapa jek,haih..cam2,alng2 kami g amik rantai skali,ari 2 rantai kami putus,anta kedai tuk bela,sbnr nya kami anta sblm cuti,smlm br nk amik,hehe.....
17oo hrs.....
MISI:MEMASAK NASI LEMAK,
VENUE:BILIK JUE
mula la ops ns lemak,msk kat blk jue bez sket coa blk dia bsr skali ganda dr blk ktorg(blk kami plng kecik coz blk sblh tangga),*cooking*.....dlm kol 6,siap la kami memasak,*waiting for break fast*....ALLAHUAKBAR,ALLAHUAKBAR....ha....dh bley buka.bismillah....hari bie bukak pose ngan air laici,fuh...nikmat nya mang xt'kira!!!!walauweh!!!!*eating*............burp...alhamdulillah....dh abis mkn 2,sume dok lepak,nyembang2,b'gurau senda sambil m'dgr lagu raya.lepak pny lepak,alih2 dh nk dkt isya',kalut sume,nk g trawih la konon,alih2 balik bilik,lepak balik.
2 la korg,suruh lagi kami msk ns lemak,alih2 sume tido awal smlm,nyah lagi lah,sampai ari nie xilang lg nagntok nye...haih,2 mjr kami xltk kaskas,klu x,trus korg addic ngan ns lmak kami,muahaha......

WARGHHH...............

huhu....pe la nsb kami,hari neyh mang suey gila.dh la pg td ipod MIA,puas dh kami ngan amal cari 1 umah 2,xde gak.mang kitorg bengong jap,menda 2 kami ltk ats kapet jek,tapi mang langsung xjmp.nk kata selit kat dlm beg mang xde pn.dh la hari neh ktorg dh nk blk kachi,nk xnk,t'paksa la blah cam 2 jek.ktorg pn dh xtaw celah bedah mn lg ktorg nk cari..
2 br 1 prob,ni ad 1 prob lg,notebook kami wat hal,dia xley nk stat,nk xnk,kena la g anta ke kdi,org kdi 2 ckp kena format blk coz ad smtg wrong ngan window,plng cpt pn esk br bely siap,ikut je la...skali td abg kdi 2 kol,dia kata kat drive c mang xde pape file pn,meaning sume nota,ass,video,lagu kami HILANG!!!!!!!t'gamam gak r.tuhan je taw btapa kuciwa nya hati kami neh..sgt2 lemah rs lutut neh.OMG,Y???????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!kami xtaw la bape hari kami bley b'thn tanpa ipod disisiku, menda 2 dh jd cam part of my life.skunk kena susun stratergi,camne nk ayat abg2 n akak2 kami spy dorg bg duit tuk bl ipod br.....TT_TT...

D.A.R.U.R.A.T

Huargh...capek seyh....kol 11 mlm td br sampai umah amal.dh nek bas dr pudu kol 5 lbey,sampai kamunting arnd 9 lbey,tggu amal dtng amik,g mlantak jap kat selera malam,so kol 11 br blk umah.tp smlm mang bez,kami kuar umah(villa sg. bill) kol 10 lbey, nek bas ke kl kol 11,sampai je pudu trus beli tiket ke taiping,kang abis xdpt nk blk plak.dh beli 2,trus nek tren ke kl sentral,MISI:MENCARI ILMU,DESTINASI:MUZIUM NEGARA!!

Mang dh lama kami ngidam nk g muzium sbnr nya,laz skali kami g muzium ms kami umur 5@6 taun kot,ayah ngan ibu bawak, 2 skali je la g muzium pn.alng2 muzium ngr ad wat pameran abt darurat,ni la masa nya tuk tmbh ilmu di dada.sampai je kat muzium,kami trus sms awin,dia kt klu nk g muzium,g arnd kol 1,coz tym 2 dia rehat,so bley la dia jumpa kami,alih2 smpai kami abis pusg 1 muzium pn,xnmpk btng idong dia,org buzy la kt kn...(cdey gak sbnr nya xdpt jmp dia...).blk kpd pmrn td,ad la tnjk scr detail nya tntg darurat yg blaku kat mesia neh,mang byk gak info yg kami dpt,xt’kira seyh.....dh abis tgk psl darurat,kami msk plak dlm galeri pra-sejarah,FYI,kami nie lemas klu gelap,n galeri 2 mang gelap,tmbh plak ngan patung yg ala2 manusia,disertakan ngan bunyik2.mang meremang bulu roma gak r,nk msk sorg2,mang simpang 7 ktrunan r.so kami jln2 la kat luar,nmpk cam ad org msuk jek,kami follow r dr blakang,hehehe.....seram seyh,korg byng kn,galeri 2 besar,pas2 kami jln sorg2,lampu dh la malap,sejuk plak 2 dlm 2,patung yg ad mang cam org,bbrrrr.......

Dlm galeri pra-sej 2 xde menda sgt,pas 2 kami ke galeri strusnya,galeri k’sultanan melayu,mang sume psl sultan n raja2 kat mesia ni kita dpt tahu,kat dlm 2 gak ad singgahsana

cantik kn?pas2 ad gak brng2 nyonya,kami smenjak tgk cite lil’ nyonya,rs mcm nk tahu lbey lg psl budaya dorg,cara hidup dorg,mknn dorg,mang rs nk tahu sgt.tingin nk ad sorg mmbr kturunan baba n nyonya,so tat kami bley tny dia avtg abt their unique ethnic.

korg tgk la,btapa vintage nye kebaya 2,ngan sapu tgn nya,kasut lg,mang teliti gila.pas2,kami jumpa some1 kat dlm muzium 2,nk tahu?kami jmp ngan Hang Tuah,xcaya?nah.....

Ha,kn btl kami ckp,tp mural je la,klu nk jmp Hang Tuah btl,kn tggu madame tussauds wat wax figure dia la.pusg pny pusg,alih2 dh abis sume bnd kat dlm muzium 2 kami usha.hm...skunk br kol 1 lbey,bas kol 5, bnyk ms lg neh,pe lagi, JOM KITA KE TIMES SQUARE!!! MISI:NK BELI T-SHIRT.

Bkn ap,dh bowink plak asyik pakai t-shirt sm.tp klu dh smpi TS,tmpt 1^st yg dituju ofcoz la kdi anty kesygn,usha jap kot2 ad merchandise 2pm br,hm..xde gak.nk beli la mouse pad Big Bang ari 2,ala,dh abis ke!!!cdey nye TT_TT.....xpe la,g tmpt len la,*walking*...hm,SASA,msk la jap,nk usha perfume,*usha*,ala,davidof cool water xde r plak,dh abis,haih....g tmpt len la.*walking*..ha,cd my girl dh ad discount,*grab*...mana vcd smile neh?*searching*,ala,dh abis la plak,Cuma tggl vcd atasinchi no danshi,nk gak tgk cite neh,tp skunk ngan bajet coz td br je bl cd prince of Persia,hm..nex tym la,tggu dia bg discount sampai 19 hengget br bl,*wandering*..lapar r plak,mlantak ns grg seafood kat ats pn bez gak neh,*eating*..burp..alhamdulillah.......pe nk wat lg ek.*thinking*..ALAMAK,DH KOL 4 STENG!!mampos,bas kami kol 5,tp sblm 2 kena g jpnese fud crnvl 2 dl,nk grab smtg 4 nyah n amal.cpt pny psl,kami grab amal choc in marsmallow nie la,

4 nyah kita bg sbekut gamba monyet neh,blok b kn byk monyet,elok sgt la,bley jd haiwan pliharaan.huhu.....

aduz,dh lmbt sgt neh,*running*,fuh..fuh...sempat gak kami kejar bas,klu x,kena la nek bas kol 6,ntah kol bape plak sampai taiping t.skunk lpk kat umah amal coz jumat neh dh nk blk kachi,mls nk blk ari sab2,tkt jem,lgpn 2 kn 1^st dy pose,kena la rehat scukupnya,’ala kulli hal,slamat berpose sume,n jgn lp g solat trawih ek......da.....(kali neh nk ajk chansung n taec yeon trawih skali la,bley suh TOP jd imam,wah..alangkh bahgia nya idop kami..AMIN......)