PARK JAEBOM.......kajima.....

i dunno if diz is rite o wrong,but my heart hurt soooo much...it's like sum1 had stab me rite in my heart.it may snd stupid 2,but i feels like crying, from d moment i heard tat bad news until now,i dunno how long i cn hold my tears.Y???????? Y did u guyz had 2 b fucking cruel 2 him?did he ever done anytg wrong 2 u guys????

i'm talking abt 2pm beasty n cutey leadja,PARK JAEBOM.he juz an innocent kids,4 me,wat he did is a normal thing.he juz feels lonely, suddenly being in a new place where u knw notin' abt it will totally m8 u wanna go back 2 ur hometown,besides,he has no one 2 talk 2 .y did u guys had 2 hacked in2 his personall message???if i'm an officer,i will definetly put u guys in2 jail o hang u guys 2 death!!!!i mean it!!!n using ur stupid n narrow-minded brain,u,anti-fan,sign a petition 4 jay 2 commid suicide?WTF!!!GTH!!! n when thing olredi getting worse,u guys simply juz say tat ur sorry,MFB,nobody gonna buy tat n we will nvr 4give u.look wat've u done,jay oledi quit 2pm and gone back 2 seattle.arrgghhh...........i'm so damn piss off rite now!!!!!!!!!!patut nya kami santau jek netizens2 bodo 2,bia mampos!!!!muahaha!!!!!!!!!!!bia korg rasa pe yg jay rasa!!!!!!xpn guna vodoo jek,srh sume an2 yg ad kat dunia neh rasuk korg,bia meracau sampai hembusan yg t'akhir!!!!!!waargghhhh..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

jay,pliz come back,HOTTEST LUV SOOOOOO MUCH......2pm is notin' w/o u.like wooyoung said,2pm isn't abt 7 guys,it's abt a person.n u,d leadja,is d head of 2pm,how cn a person live w/o a head???so pliz...don't m8 us sign a petition 2 boycott ol 2pm career juz 2 m8 u come back.damn,if i'm in korea now,i'll definetly join d boycott at JYP studio..jay,pliz come back....we need u....ONLY U.................jay,if only i can b ur angle,protect u from d pain n danger....

reminisence over u..

ah.....it's that day again.the day that i wish it will nvr come back my life.i wish d wrld cld juz stop rite b4 it hit diz dy.bt i don't have any pwr 2 do tat.diz iz one of d dy tat m8 ma hrt ache so much.......



07 september 1946.....



ni la trkh kramat dimana sorg bayi b'nama abdul rahman dilahirkan.sjk kecik lg ayh dh dilatih utk hidop berdikari,bkn sbb kesempitan idop.tp keadaan Malaya wk2 2 yg still undr jajahan jepun n blom lg merdeka.siblings ayah ad 4 org,2 laki,2 pmpn.ayh ank ke-3,n d one n only yg smbg blaja samapi U.klu ktorg ngadu mls nk g skul ke,jaoh la,xde bas la,ayh slalu cite camne dia kena kayuh beskal sampai 10 km,trn nek bkt lg,kn plak kuar umah sblm sbh smata2 nk sampai skul sblm monin' asmbly.1 thing abt ayah is,he nvr addres his own father as abah ke,walid ke watsoever,tapi ayah pggl aki(atuk) kami,ayah andak.bl ktorg tny nape,dia kt it's on of the wy he show his respect 2 his own father.n ayah pggl uweh(nenek) kami,Nyang.cam org baba pggl mak dorg,Nya Nya.tp kami xtaw la klu uweh 2 baba ke x,tp yg km taw she's a chinese.ad 1 gamba dia kami smpt tgk ms kecik dl,dia mang cantik...... sgt,aki pn encem,smart cam malay warrior g2.



pas abis skul mngh,ayah dpt smbg blaja kat UKM,tym 2 UKM br bk,kira ayah mang pure pny 1st batch stdn la.ayah amik kos Usuluddin(klu xslh kami la),n ms konvo,ayah sorg je pake shades avatar ms nk amik ijazah,bila ktorg tny "nape ayah pakai shade?cikgu xmare ke?"(bdk2 tny),ayah mesti ckp,"t sng la ank2 ayh nk cam ayh",hehe,future minded btol...



pas abis blaja,baru ayah kawen ngan ibu.klu slh kami ms ayah kawen,umur ayah dlm 28 o 29 cam 2 la,tapi ibu muda,19 thn baru....org dolu2 dating tmpt bese jek,plng grand pn kat zoo,2 pn bwk member,kira dble dating la.family ibu memula xtime ayah coz ayah org pahang,kami xtaw la pe ibu bilang sama dia pny family sampi diorg bley time ayah.kami rasa dorg jmp kat kl la,coz ibu mang dari kecik duk kat kl(coz she nvr stay with her real mother,she was raised by her aunt n grdmthr.)pas 2,ayh dpt keja jd lect kat MPI(maktab perguruan islam),n ms stay kat kl 2,along,angah ngan mat lahir.3-3 lahir kat hsptl assunta,3-3 msk tadika raihan.pas mat lahir,ayah dpt plak twrn jd pnlg knn skul.disinilah bermulanya k'hdpn kuarga salehudin sbgi org nomad.mn xnye,stay kat 1 skul 2-3 taun,pas 2 kena plak pndh kat tmpt len.klu dkt2 xpe,ni kena cross 2 3 negri br sampe.60 hari lps kami lahir,ktorg skali lg kn pndh ke negri bwh bayu,coz ayh nek pgkt as pengetua.lama gak r ktorg stay sn,dlm 5 6 taun cam 2,abg2 n akak2 kami sume xreti ckp mlayu bese,ateh,udoh b'gaul ngan org sbh24 jm.lm gak br dorg bley ckp bese.



ayah is a person who will do anytg n avtg 4 his family.i wld say,xpenah skali pn kami rs kecewa ngan ayah,mang sometimes km xbley tima kptsn dia,bt pe yg dia wat 2 sbnr nya btl.wen it comes 2 religious stuff,ayh mang strict,tp klu ajk main, lg gila dr ktorg.hobi ayh sbnr nya nyanyi,sm la ngan ibu,kengkadang 2 bley gdh plak 2-2 org 2,sbb slh lrk la,pitching lari,(klu tym 2 ad rncgn jgn lp lirik,msk kn jek ayh ngan ibu dlm 2).antr gr8 stuff abt ayah is,he alwys show his luv 2 his children,dlm diary ayh,sume buzday ank ayh tls,buzday ibu,anvrsry dorg.kiranya ayh xpenah lp nk smbt buzday ank2 dia.ayah is a romantic guy 2,dia slalu buat2 lupa buzdy ibu,bl ibu tny igt xbuzday dia,ayh mesti buat2 lupa,bg mcm2 alsn la konon nya,pas 2 bila tgh mlm,bl ktorg sume dh tido(tido ke?pdhl sumenye ngendap ayah ngan ibu,hehe..),br ayh bg prsent kat ibu.kengkadg 2 ayah buat2 la suh ibu tmn kn dia g bl brng,tp jgn bwk ktorg(eleh,alsn,nk dating ckp je la).ad 1 set diary yg ayah sediakan tuk ktorg,stiap sorg ad diary msng2,kat dlm 2 la ayh tls avtg abt ktorg,cam bila andak mula jln,1st dy awin msk skul,kira cam life journey ktorg la.n wen it comes 2 my buzday,prsnt ayh simple jek,he juz bought me a box of choc,pandan layer o blueberry cake,n den ktorg akn smbt sm2.i wld say,he will give me choc 4 av gud thing that i've done,cam dpt mrkh bek,dh khatam quran,even klu kami majuk ngan ayah pn,he juz gave me choc,n avtg will be fine..

ayah,i juz want u 2 know smtg.i'll alwys luv u,n u r avtg 2 me.n if i could turn back time,i swear i'll do anytg 4 me even if it's mean tat i have 2 sacrifice my onw life.i love u so much,i won't let anyone 2 t8b ur place in my heart,coz no one can replace u.i can't resist it,i think abt u av sgle day,altho u had left be,but 2 b honest,i always wish tat wen i come home,i wld c u sitting on ur fvr8 couch n smiling n waiting 4 me 2 come home.i still can forgive myself,y shud i left u on ur death bed,n go back 2 my skul,i'm so sorry,forgive me daddy.....