Sunday, October 24, 2010

Random Entry...



My digital clock shows the digit of 5:23am....yup,this is the time when i wrote this blog..hm...actually i don't have anything to say...juz tat suddenly i feels like writing..(actually i don't really like to update my blog if it's not an important thing)...but...i dunno what is wrong with me 2nite..
ok,ok......hm...what have i been up to lately..

1.Choir night practice for convocation has started....d venue had changed from pusat ko-k to DKG 3/2 because all of us can't fit tat tiny practice room.but i don't really like dkg3..wae??coz of some "haunted" story tat i heard...urghh...blame miss cat for telling me abt it.now it's creapin' me out...

2.my 5th semester in UUM is coming to an end..hah~~~~now i don't feels like leaving this place.i mean i start to love UUM now...Universiti Pilihan Utama....ooh yes u are..

3.i still got 2 unfinished asgmtn,both from my lovely lecturer,Dr.Rie Nakamura.....which had bring me a major headache until now.d topic is simple:KOREAN WAR(group asgmnt) n explain d relationship between North&South Korea(individual asmgnt).....i love both of d topics,i do.but d prob is.......its really hard to satisfy her you know.i mean,a complete paper for her means you gotta have quote,end/foot note and TOTALLY no COPY&PASTE coz if she caught you,straightly u'll get 0 for your paper....0_0....

4.i dunno why n when......but i am totally in luuurrrvvveeee with T-pop...oh yes i am...if wrote b4 abt my new addiction,but still i wanna write more about it...huhu.....well,i have been in love with thai boys since i'm 12 y.o.....my 1st celebrity crush is Mr.Greg Uttsada Panichkul...
then move on to Blackjack..his 1st video tat i saw is Love me if you can...if i'm not mistaken,and just like that....i became his fan..haha...
move on.....i sat my eyes on another ullzzang(sorry i mix a lil bit korean)...Mr.Chin Chinawut...d moment i saw his Mv,i was like 0__0...dayum....y r u so fvckg HAWT!!!!!...i mean he can dance,he can sing,he can act...PERFECT!!!!!....so now his my 2nd major bias after my hubby..(can't leave him behind..)
it didn't stop there...next...kyaa~~!!!!!!!!!!!!! (i need to scream) coz i am freaking addicted to
K-OTIC.....and my biases are??????jeng jeng jeng......KOEN&JONGBAE!!!!!!! (unfortunately miss yoyo is also crazy for jongbae,tat's mean we have to share..TT^TT...)
well,it's not a big deal since i still have Koen..oh yeah baybeh!!he is.....how can i describe this......TEENAGER!...haha....sorry but i don't have any word on how to describe his personality,but what can i say is...i love everything abt him,his fashion,vlog.pix..everytg.....
but d bad part is,he is 3 years younger than me...TT^TT....wae????why did all the cute n handsome guys has to be younger than me?!?!.....argh....whatever...
oh ya...there's 1 more guy that i like too...guess who????it's............................
tat's right...he is TJ from 3.2.1...woot woot!!!!!i dunno y,but i always fall for any guy who can rap,coz for me he is a sexy guy...hoho....he is so cute,n in My Boo MV..man...he looks handsome..kyaa~~~~...

*breathing*..............pardon me for this fangirling post...i just can't control myself....ommo,it's 7am already???kyaa~~~i got hospitality presentation today on 9:30 and i didn't sleep all night??argh...it's my insomnia..shiet..i shud have brought my pills..urgghh....gotta get goin now...but before i go...a little shout out to my luvly hubby,Mr.Choi Seunghyun....jagiya..no matter how many guys i stated in my blog or my fb,i just want u to know tat u r my 1 n only sweetheart...luv ya..muaaxxxx....XoxOXo........

Friday, October 22, 2010

KYAA~~~~~~!!!!!


OhMaGD!!!!!
is this really happening to me???i mean...seriously????kyaaa!!!!!!!
u don't know how happy i am when i check my twitter laz nite.actually i forgot that i twit to chin earlier n i didn't really expect him to reply my twit,but he really did.
HAHAHAHAHAHA...........*overjoy*
dayum....tat is y i love u more n more.....*mianhae hubby*......
maybe it's nothing for sum people,but for me......*speechless*
i stomp my feet endlessly when i read it.....wo hen gao xing!!!!!!!

Mr.Chin Chinawut Indacusin



BACK OFF LADIES COZ HE'S MINE!!!!
MUAHAHAHAHAAH...........

i think i have found myself a new hubby,no,i'm not divorcing with my Choihubby....it's just tat i need sum1 to love me when he's not there and tat lucky man is Mr.Chin!!!*clap*

dayum.......just look at how hawt he is...i mean he doesn't look like a thai at all,he looks more like a chinese.well,his mom is france n his dad is thai...+sophie(his sister)is soooooo pretty,really envy her...

chin n his momma..

siblings love...


1st kami kenal chin is thru chinese drama....18 sumtg la tajuk dia...bez gak cite tu,tp time tu dia mang agak muda la....so amek port sgt la...then time kami keje kat speedy br kami taw yg he's thai coz i saw his cd in thai artist rack,so i ask my friend:
me:"ah ying,wei shen me chin de cd you zai thai guo artist d di fang?"(ah ying,y is chin cd in thai artist rack?)
ah ying:"owh,ta shi thai guo ren ma..wei shen me?ni yi wei ta she taiwan lai de ah?mei you la..."(owh,tat becoz he's a thai,why?u thought he's a taiwanese ah?no la..)

0__0....really??he doesn't looks like a thai at all.....dayum he's hawt...so d rest are history...how old is he?he's 21 y.o....*sigh*....budak muda lagi....xkisah la...owh,i just realize,both my hubby's name start with d letter C=Choi Seunghyun,Chin Chinawut Indacusin...^_^...

I'M SO HAPPY!!!!!!!!BABY AH,....CHAN RAK TURR!!!!!!


my intelligence boy..

can i be ur classmate n sit beside u..lol


ommo,baby.how did u found me here??


he's a huge fan of Lilo&Stitch...nadoo~~~~


my perfect chin~~ *_*...

PUT UR HANDS UP!!!

hm...tetiba rasa cam update blog plak...ni sume miss yoyo_icecube pny psl la..haha....JK dear..
lets see....what happen in my life recently..
1.family drama yg xreti2 bhs nk abis...*sigh*....since i'm in premier school until now,the drama keeps on going on n on...arghh....pegi brambus ngan sume tu...dh mls nk pike...huh.
2.i am sooooooooo into thai pop right now.dulu ad gak minat,but i just kenal blackjack only,then after pegi hatyai with my soul nyah...wah.....br kenal ngan k-otic,c-quint,FFK,Chin Chinawut(hawt stuff!!!!)..sape kata lagu thai xbez???bez taw..music knows no boundaries la..xkesah la dia ckp bhs tamil ke,thai ke,burma ke,klu lagu tu bez...mang bez gak..
3.makin nk abis sem ni,cam bese la...KONVO TIME!!tp agk sdey gak coz this is my laz convo.TT^TT...pas ni dh xdpt nk rs camni dah...farewell party choir smlm mang besh yg t'amat.oltho xramai yg dtng,but still meriah...LUV U GUYS~~!!
4.JAY PARK IS COMING TO MALAYSIA!!!!!!AND IT IS CONFIRM!!!!!wah......korg xtaw btapa happy nya kami....he's like d 2nd after Big Bang tat is important to me.tp yg xbesh nye,VVIP nye tix quiet bissabda..rm600...hm...nex sem dh la bnyk guna duit,ngan baksis nya.itu nye,ini nye...adoyai...tgk la normal tix pny price bape....by hook or by crook,i still wanna go..
5.last week scr rasmi nya sy sdh break ngan my bf...hm...pyh la couple ngan bdk muda neh,otak dorg len sbnr nya ngan kita...tp xpe la,papehal,we're still friends.^_^

tu je la kot....i'll explain others later.......lalolelilu~~~~~~

Thursday, October 21, 2010

F**K OFF!!!!

aarrrrggrhh............F*CK OFF!!!!!
gah......i'm so fedup wit u guys....xabis2 mslh nya....yg ko nk ngamok2 ap hal???menopos ke???arrfgghhh....klu la ad ubat kat dunia for a happy family,mang dh lama kami beli,but d probs is xde,tu yg cam ***** jek family ak neh.....sorg prangai camni,sorg lg prangai camni...bole gile ak jd nye tawx??drama xabi2....aduh....juz stop it la,sjk dr kami skola mngh,until now,xabis2 nk b'drama....sinetron pn reti nk brenti...
what do you mean by "jgn jd macam lalang?kejap sn,kejap sini?"....FYI,i have my own oppinion,i'll live my life the way i want it.kami xnk lbey kn mn2 pihak coz 4 me,2-2 blah ad betul n salah nya.klu ko nk kami fully stay on ur side juz because korg sblh ibu,i'm so sorry i can't.why???sebab korg memang dh taw yg kami xbley nk syng ibu.don't ask me why,i just can.bkn nya kami xcuba,i had try,but still i can't....so jgn nk paksa kami.n the other side plak,klu korg nk kami stay with u guys just because u guys r d elders,i'm so sorry,i can't either...why??sbb korg pn ad gak slh nya....ap dia??buka minda,pike2 sndr...korg taw x,1 of d reason nape family ni fall apart is because of fikiran sempit korg....i'm not asking u guys to be liberal,but tolg la open sket minda korg tu....
mang kami xbley nk ckp sume ni dpn korg,y?coz kami still ad rasa hormat seorang adik t'hadap abg2 n kakak2 dia....tapi kami pn xbole nk simpan je dlm hati...damn i wish kami dh fly oversea to further my study,dh xsggp nk blakon dlm drama yg ntah taun bila nk abis...
@*&$%V@*B%HT^*&G^&@$%X#%V()#@&%)($&@............

Sunday, October 10, 2010

HATE YOU!!!!

I am fvking hate my family rite now,yeah,u heard me,I HATE 'EM ALL!!!!!!masing2 dgn kpala otak masing2,sorg prangai camni,sorg lagi prangai camni.bila b'gaduh,mula la family b'pecah.yg jadi mangsanya kitorang yg kecik2 ni.sblh pihak suruh pegi belah dia,sblh pihak lagi ckp ikut dorg.let me tell you something okay,I'M NOT IN ANY SIDE.not even the "good" side or the "bad" side.coz 2-2 belah pihak ad pro n contra dorg masing2.i might tell you that i'm in your side,but i'm so sorry,i have to lie.i don't even think that i own a family right now.i've been crying deep in my heart for so long.i just don't wanna tell you guys about it.i lost my family the moment you guys fought with each other.i love all of you and i want my family back,why can't you guys just be honest with each other.
i have a lots of good and sweet memories with all of you.i still remember how angah will play with my hair back when i was little,she'll make all kinds of hairdo for me,and i can say it's the prettiest hairdo in the world.Mat,i still remember the way he hold me when i was crying because daddy won't let me follow him.he comfort me and tell me that it's okay,he's gonna be there and he'll take care of me until daddy come back.he also the one that comfort me the day daddy pass away,telling them he'll be there for me.andak,for me you are the sweetest big brother.you still call me adik even i'm so big right now.whenever you saw me walking home alone,you'll give me a ride with your green bicycle and carry my big+heavy bag on your back.awang,whenever you feel uncomfortable or you feel dizzy,you will always ask me to give you a massage and thanks me when you feel a little better.awin.do you know that i envy you so much back then,because you are so good,you're good in sport,in academic and your pretty too,how i wish i can be like you when i grow up.amar,we have a great memories when we were small.we will play together,do everything together,play in the school pool,and let me tell you something,whenever your drawing were post on the school board,i am so damn proud of you and will tell my friend that this is my brother's drawing.for aiman n ain,well,there's no word than can describe how much i love you guys.i may be harsh sometimes,it's not that i hate you guys,just that i want you guys to be the best and better than me.i don't want you guys to follow my foot step coz i can say that i'm the worse in the family,i can't get into SMKA until i'm in form6,not like other siblings,they are way clever than me,they get into the school after they finish their primary school.n i'm not good in academic,sports anything.i promise you guys that i'll do anything for you even if it cost me my life.
mom,i can tell you that i do have some good memories of you.i still remember how you will bring back guava everytime you go to the market when you know that i love to eat it.you throw me the biggest n the best birthday party in my life when i was 6,you made this delicious cakes,buy a lot of chocolate and invite all my friends.there's much more,but i can't recall any of it because of all the hates that i have in me.i'm sorry mom,i'm really sorry.i've try my best to open up my heart try to love you,but i just can't,it's hard,it feels like if i start to love you and put you inside my heart,you will go away,just like daddy.let me tell you something,i can't love anybody right now because i'm afraid that they'll leave me too.daddy's memories just keep mingling inside of me.i think about him every freaking day.i know you guys feels the same too.we all miss him,and i miss him more because i spend have of my life with,i learn only to love him,so when he's gone,i don't think i belong in this world anymore,it's like god had taken my heart with him.i can't set my mind straight until now.everything is just like a dream to me.everytime i go to sleep,i wish that he'll be there,telling me that it's okay for me to sleep because the angles will be here all night long to take care of me and no monster can come near me.and when i wake up,he'll be there,infront of me.smiling at me and kiss me in the forehead just like he use to do. i gave up eating chocolate because that's the most important things that remind me of him,i went to hatyai,to recall all the memories with daddy.i can still see how stiff we are we he took the picture.i miss his big batik sweater even if i kinda hate it,heh,it's too big for me.
guys,i don't know whether i should say this or not.all of you have a problem with each other.everyone is a grown up here,just think about it.1st thing 1st,never ever judge a book by it's cover.angah,even if awin didn't wear her headgear,that doesn't mean that she's bad.she still takes a good care of me.although sometimes she'll piss me off,but still,it doesn't change the fact that she is always concern about me.try to open your heart to except here,she might be different compare to others,but she have her own way to show her love.awin,i don't know what happen to your past with angah,but what i can say is,she is not as bad as you think she is.she always think about our family since she's the oldest.she always wanted the best.she try to keep the pace between our family and daddy's.losing daddy doesn't mean that we are no longer apart of them.
i know that we have a family meeting everytime,but i just didn't feel it because we're not really telling others on how much we feels.i'm not saying that i love the family meeting because i totally hate it,but i can say that it's really a good thing for us.just don't do it every year,can ah?hehe..
i miss the old times,the time where all of us will sit together and enjoy our meal,the time when we will surround dad and mom,and ask them to tell the story when we're still a kid.everything is nothing now.i can't feel the love no more.i can say that i'm all alone right now.all that i have with me is just memories,memories that will never come back again.never.